Picture at top/side is how Ash looks :)
Dear Journal?
(I would write dear diary, but dear journal is more manly)You know what? Fuck it...
Dear Friend,
I honestly don't think that I can live without Ash. I mean, I know that makes me sound clingy and desperate or whatever, but you know?
Well, you don't know cause you're an empty book, yeah...
*awkward silence*
And the fact that my dad is being a piece of shit right now doesn't make this any easier.
I need someone in my life to talk to.
I'm about to just start talking to myself, cause you know - I've never done that before...
Damnit!
I can't do this much longer, Friend! My dad is forgetting about me and my bestfriend is moving on with his life!!!
I know, I know - I'm a piece of shit, cause I'm supposed to be happy for him.
I am happy for him!
I'm just sad for me as well...
I don't think that I'm losing weight like Ash said I was...
I think I'm actually gaining weight.
Though, it's gotten to the point of where I'm just too lazy and tired to get up and get food. I haven't ate in like two days. But that's normal, I guess. Some people fast.
Yet again, that's for some type of spiritual or religion stuff...
I just don't know what's happening to me!
I'm so confused, and I hate everything right now!
Oh, that's awesome. Now I have a wet spot on the paper. Stupid tears, stupid emotions!
Please, please, please, PLEASE tell me what the fuck is wrong!
Sorry, maybe I should just mark that out, yeah?
You're just a book. You're not a god. You can't tell me everything, and help me like I'd like you to.
Wow!
I'm talking to a book...
Well, at least I'm not like over at Ash's and stressing him out.
I really hope everything works out for him. He deserves a big break and a chance.
I just hope that I don't do anything stupid, you know?
I'm scared, Friend... I'm scared.
~ Mikey
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I Don't Even Know ❇ malum au
FanfictionA story in which a hopeless boy acquires a strange reliance upon a little notebook. A notebook whom of which he trusts with his deepest, darkest, and most personal secrets. :)The Journal of Michael G. Clifford(: THIS IS MORE THAN JUST A STORY BASED...