Dear Friend,
It's been a few days since Calum and I had our first date.
Yep, it was our first date!
Fucking first!!!
Oh my gosh, I haven't been this happy in what seems to be forever.
I texted Ash about it. He was happy for me. Hell, I even texted Luke about it. He said that Cal had already told him about it. But, nonetheless, he was happy for us, too.
But this leads me to a slight curiosity.
Calum wanted to kiss me differently than what I'm used to. Well, I'm not particularly used to any form of kiss at all. But he seems to be ready for a more passionate (I guess that's a good word to describe it with) kind of kiss.
So, back to my curiosity.
I figure that if we are to be together for a while longer - which hopefully we will be, cause I really like him - that we could have, um, ya know... Sex.
And I don't wanna look like a total, fucking, clueless child when we get there. I need to know what it is. Like, I more or less know what straight sex is - but, I'm not for sure how it would work in our case?
I mean, I have an idea - but is that even possible?
Oh God, if it is - it must be uncomfortable for one of the two involved.
Oh God - is that how it happens?
I need to look it up before I worry myself to death.
Wish me luck, Friend...
~ Mikey
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I Don't Even Know ❇ malum au
FanfictionA story in which a hopeless boy acquires a strange reliance upon a little notebook. A notebook whom of which he trusts with his deepest, darkest, and most personal secrets. :)The Journal of Michael G. Clifford(: THIS IS MORE THAN JUST A STORY BASED...
