For Better Or Worse [Everlark]

Chapter 36: Was It All Just a Lie?

*Katniss POV*

It's been a week. One whole week of Peeta not responding to my texts, calls, anything. Im seriously worried now. Did I do something wrong? Did something happen to him? Ughhhh I just want to know. I probably messed something up since he keeps ignoring me. You know what, I don't deserve this. I'm going to his house today and I'm not leaving until he talks to me.

I am currently in my room. I check my phone to see if Peeta called, texted, anything. Nothing. I feel my stomach flip. I maybe have feelings for Peeta and it's weird. Whenever I'm with him a feel my stomach drop and I'm lost for words. I can't explain why I feel this way and I'm so confused about everything right now.

I rush out of my house and into my car. I drive to Peeta's house and once I get there I rush out of my car. I decide to just enter in without knocking since I know that Peeta forgets to lock his door sometimes. I enter the house but see that no one is there.

"Hello? Peeta?" No response. I head upstair to Peeta's room but stop in my tracks once I hear voices in his room. I take a step foward and see through the crack of his bedroom door. I see him with a blonde girl, having her sit on his lap.

"I love you so much Peeta." She says as she kisses Peeta's lips while seductively pulling on his hair. Peeta kisses her back and grabs hers thin waist. He pulls her in closer and kisses her deeply. The girl starts kissing Peeta's neck and Peeta moans. I put my hand over my mouth. At this point my eyes are full of tears. I hear Peeta say something that makes me want to die then and there.

"I-I love you too Katherine." I choke on a sob. Peeta notices me and his eyes go wide open. I run down the stairs as fast as I can.

"Katniss wait!" I hear him call out but I don't stop. I open the door and run to my car and step inside. I can still hear Peeta calling my name,running to me. I ignore him and start my car. I drive away. I take one last look behind me and see that Peeta is outside, crying onto his knees sitting on the floor.

I thought he loved me. I thought he felt the same. I thought I finally found happiness. I thought I found someone who truly understands me, but I guess I was wrong. I was so wrong. He doesn't love me. He loves that Katherine girl. He will never love me, no one will. I will always be alone with one to hold me when I'm down. No one to tell me everything's okay when really everything is messed up. No one to tell me 'I love you' when I need it. No one.

I turn on the radio. Music can take over me this time. I listen to a song that comes up.

Wait don't tell me heaven is a place on on earth

I wish I could rewind all the times that I didn't show you what you're really worth

The way you held me

I wish I would've put you first

I was wrong I admit

Numb from your kiss while you were slipping through my fingertips

Taking every breath away
With all of the mistakes I made
From all of those letters I saved
This is everything I didn't say

I wish I could've made you stay and I'm the only one to blame
I know that it's a little too late
This is everything I didn't say

Wake me up now and tell me this is all a bad dream

All the songs that I wrote

All the wrongs that I hoped would erase from your memory

Holding onto an broken and empty heart

Flowers I should've bought all the hours I lost

Wish I could bring it back to the
start

Taking every breath away
With all of the mistakes I've made
And all those letters I saved
This is everything I didn't say

I wish I could've made you stay
And I'm the only one to blame
I know that it's a little too late
This is everything I didn't say

I hope you know, for you I'd sacrifice to make this right

Someday I'm sure we'll pass each other by

Until that time

Taking every breath away
With all the mistakes I made
And all those letters I saved
This is everything I didn't say

I wish I could've made you stay
And I'm the only one to blame
I know that it's a little too late
This is everything I didn't say

By the end of the song my tears are all over my face. The lyrics explained what I wanted to say to Peeta but it's already too late. He was my everything.

Wait a minute, I remember more stuff now. The games we used to play as kids, the hatred I had for him and him for me, the first kiss, the day I knew I loved him, the late night texts he sent me, the peaceful beach days, the amazing picnics he set up for us, I remember. I remember everything. How is this even possible? I stop the car and sob my tears out. Nothing matters now. I will never have someone to love. Never.

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