"Don't take it personal he does it to everyone." Veronica sat my kitchen counter eating a bright red apple.
I wasn't surprised she decided to show up, however, I was surprised I let her inside my home. She made me even more nervous than Sean.
"Come on. You can't stay silent forever." She smirked at me then took a bite of the juicy apple.
I let her in but I didn't say I would talk. So I put on my best poker face, maybe she wouldn't be able to read me like Sean, but again they were related and I doubt I could hide my emotions from her for long.
She grinned revealing her electric white teeth. "I know you love him."
"What?!" I couldn't help but blurt out.
"I don't hear denial." She sang grinning at me.
I seethed in anger but managed to keep my cool.
"Fine, whatever, I know you love him and even if you did deny it, I would know you are lying."
My mouth hung open. I didn't know what to say and it seemed to please her because she smirked.
Sean's POV
I ran down out of her house and down the sidewalk. My feet smacked the pavement and the sounds echoed off the surrounding houses.
I couldn't stand to get so close to her. She couldn't know what I really was.
A monster.
I wanted to go home and sleep and forget about how beautiful she was. How even when she was sick she seemed radiant and unlike any girl I've ever known. How someone so ordinary is extraordinary all the same. It astounds me how quickly I could fall for a girl like that. Maybe it's because I've been with so many that were cheaper and fake? Regardless, I'm not suppose to really love her.
I'm only suppose to make her think so.
And I don't want to do it anymore.
I ran through Briarwood County with the wind howling and whipping around me. I was freezing but at least I knew I felt something. I was beginning to question my humanity after everything I've done.
Finally on the other side of town I ran through my dark dreary neighborhood in the bad part of town. In the daylight it looked less threatening but at night it looked like a mugging waiting to happen. I have never been afraid of this place I call home because I grew up here. There are many more things in my life I should be afraid of and to fear this would be a wast of energy.
I got to my tiny shack of a house. Something my mom could barely afford since my dad walked out. Most kids would hate to see their father leave their life. They would miss so many moments like playing catch or being taught how to shave. Having a man to teach you how to be one builds character but he wasn't a man he was a coward.
My father was absolutely horrible to me growing up. I was the kid who ruined his life. When he found out my mom was pregnant he felt like he was forced to stay when he really meant to leave her way before then. He always said he could've been something in the world if I never existed. And to be honest that was minor to the normal things he said and did. That was character building enough.
My mom completely shut out after he left. She really loved him no matter all the shit she had to deal with when it came to him. She went absolutely insane after he was gone. She blamed herself and started drinking to kill the pain of his absence.
I was too much for my father and not enough for her.
Veronica isn't my fathers daughter though, she was from my Mom's first marriage and was the most rebellious child. Always out with her friends for days at a time but she was more than my own Mom was.
When I turned fifteen I got caught up with the wrong kind of people. The kind that steal and scam to make a quick buck. Desperate guys who needed money to survive. Ones who were abandoned like me. I was surprised at how they lacked having a conscience. When they stole or scammed money off of innocent people who were probably almost as poor as they were they didn't feel anything. When I did it I was sick with guilt.
What was worse was the guys I began to know and consider brothers fell under the weight of the world and used their money for cigarettes and other drugs. They completely lost their souls out of desperation and I could only pity them. Every day I spent with them I wondered how long it would take until I became as heartless as they were. Some days I saw my reflection and didn't recognize the guy looking back at me. Sometimes I still don't.
Veronica knew about everything but she didn't try to stop me. She knew why I did it and when she left for college it only got worse.
I grabbed the doorknob to the front door and it didn't budge.
Locked out.
I banged on the door. "Mom it's me, Sean." I said in a formative tone but no answer.
I sat on the front porch and looked up at the night sky. The stars were amazing tonight. I tried to focus on them to forget about the cold.
Veronica was probably out and would be back to let me in sometime tonight. I hoped. Hope was hard to hold onto but it was all I had to hold onto all of my life.
Michelle. She was all that crossed my mind sitting in the cold. I ran out on her without an answer. I bet she already forgot about me though. I didn't mean much to her. Or, I didn't mean as much to her as she does to me. The only think worse is if she didn't forget about me. I would only hurt her in the end anyway.
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Hey again! I'm so sorry I haven't been able to update I've been at the beach for the past few days. I really hope you like Sean's POV!!! I'm not a guy (obviously) so bear with me in writing in a guys perspective.
ALSO!!!!! Unless I say it's Sean's POV then it's Michelle's. Okay? Good :)
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