YOU AND I COMPLETED

CHAPTER 56 The wedding

DRIA'S POV

I was admitted in the hospital for 3 days. I was in complete bed rest and the whole time Kurt was at my side. He will go before and after work. It was nice to think na we have a happy family. Pero how can your family be happy if your partner is in love with somebody else?

The wedding preparation was so fast that I think I forgot to blink. I asked them to make it simple and just invite close friends and family.  Kurt agreed with everything and our parents agreed that this wedding should happen as soon as possible. And here we are, the day of the wedding.

I'm standing in my bridal room, looking out the window. My parents are outside in the garden, I can see them holding hands and embracing each other. What would I give to have that kind of love? Sana ganon din kami ni Kurt. Kinausap kami ng parents ko and pinagtakpan namin yung buong situation. We told them that we had an misunderstanding na akala ko hindi na maayos kaya tinago ko na lang yung pregnancy ko. They didn't buy the whole thing though, pero ang importante sa kanila ay ikakasal ako at may ama ang anak ko. Hindi naman nagka lamat yung samahan ng parents namin ni Kurt. Parang mas naging close pa nga ata sila. Pero nung una kinausap si Kurt nina Kuya Argie at Arvic tapos ni Daddy. Hindi ko na tinanong kung ano ang pinagusapan nila. Pero at least okay sila. Sobrang hands on sakin si Mommy at ang mommy ni Kurt. They are so excited about the baby.

I'm almost 7 months pregnant now. I'm too big! Literally! I gained weight. Pero sabi nila bagay naman daw sakin. I have the pregnant woman glow. Haha. Sobrang excited na ako para sa baby ko. Hindi ko pa tinatanong yung gender. Siguro sa next doctor's appointment na lang.

I'm feeling jitterish now. Kaya ko ba to? Can I marry Kurt knowing na he's just doing this because of the baby? I know that he loves me. Well, I want to believe that. Pero nandon din yung realization na mas mahal niya si Lizzy. Yun yung masakit. MAS yung kay Lizzy at ako lang ang sumasambot ng tira tira niyang pag ibig. Ano kaya nasa isip ni Lizzy ngayon?

"Dria, it's time"

Si Jyra, ang made of honor ko at katabi niya si Vince na isa din sa groomsmen. Nilapitan nila ako and then they hugged me tight.

"Guys wag nga kayong ganyan. Don't make me cry please."

"Dria are you sure about this?" That was Vince.

"Hindi Vince. Pero kailangan ko tong gawin." Tiningnan ko lang siya with sad eyes.

"Dria nandito naman kami to raise the baby with you." Naiiyak na si Jyra.

Bago pa ako maiyak sinabi ko na ang matagal ko nang dapat sinabi sa kanila.

"Jyra, Vince, I'm sorry. Alam ko naman na good ang intention niyo for me and my baby. Pero who am I to deny my child a chance to have a complete family? Gustong kong lumaki siya sa environment kung paano ako lumaki. At nag ooffer naman si Kurt. And I can see and feel na genuine yung concern niga for the baby. I'm sorry if I didnt tell you guys this sooner. We were together again for a short period of time. Nagkabalikan kami pero hindi muna namin pinagsabi. Mahal ko talaga siya. Ang tanga tanga ko db. Tingnan niyo kung nasaan ako ngayon. Pero I don't regret having this baby. And my baby deserves the best. I know that Kurt loves me. I just have to deal with the love that he has for me kahit na walang laban yun sa kung gaanon niya kamahal si Lizzy."

I can't help it but tears started to run down my face.

"Whatever happens Dria, we will always be right here for you. We love you with no amount of words enough to say. Samin wala kang kahati."

And with that, sama sama kaming lahat na lumabas.

I'm getting married. Parang noon pinangarap ko lang to. Noong bata pa ako. I pictured myself so genuinely happy and excited. I'm neither. Pero okay lang. I will be truly happy in time.

I saw my parents, they both kissed me. Hindi sapat yung words para sabihin ko sa kanila kung gaano ako ka thankful na sila ang parents ko. They never judged me though alam ko na sobrang nagalit si daddy. We started walking down the aisle.

Then there were Kurt's parents. They were smiling at me with the same smile that I used to love.  I know I have a family in them.

Jyra and Vince, smiling at the end. They finally understood kung bakit ako pumayag sa ganito. I love Kurt and my baby. And I'll be satisfied sa kung anong kayang ibigay ni Kurt sakin.

Si Nathan. He's looking at me with sad eyes. Pero alam niyang eto yung gusto ko. Na eto dapat yung tama. There were times na winish ko na sana si Nathan na lang ang minahal ko. Baka hindi pa ako nasaktan ng ganito.  Pero alam ko na Nathan is destined for a more special girl than I am. Hindi ako naniniwala na special ako. Kasi kung special ako sana wala ako sa ganitomg sitwasyon ngayon.  At si Nathan, he is equally special. He has a big heart that can love  equally big! Maybe in another lifetime magkaka chance din kaming dalawa.

Then there's  Kurt. He's standing at the end of this aisle. Handsome and so confident of himself. I wanna cry. Is this my fate? Hanggang ganito na lang ba ako? Will I forever beg for his love? Hindi ko alam kung ano ang meron si Kurt at balik ako ng balik sa kanya.

As we got closer I got a better view of his face. He seems content and happy. Ayoko mag assume. Ganon na lang ba kadali para sa kanya ang mag pretend?

As we reach the end I thought to my self. Dria, you will no longer me Alexandria Sero, but Mrs. Alexandria Garado.