Metal Saved Me

Chapter 49

Zacky's P.O.V

We are in Helsinki, Finland now and I still fucking can't get Poppy outta my head, I have slept with a couple of fans since I last saw her but to be honest when I was doing the deed with the fans all I could picture was Poppy's face, this is fucking hard, I can't get her outta my head at all. I really think I love her. Fuck what do I do? Do I tell her? Do I ruin her and Padge's relationship? Jesus Zacky you are a fucking tool!, I wonder how Jason is coping with his crush on Poppy too?

Brian's P.O V

I'm noticing Zacky is acting weird, I'm just wondering why? I know he has being so quiet since leaving London! I wonder if he has a crush on Poppy or Olivia and that's why he is quiet! He has being acting way outta character these last few days, sleeping with fans is not like Zacky, there must be something wrong, I think I will go ask him. So I get to Zacky's room and he leaves me in.

Zacky: Sup Bro?

Brian: I was gonna ask U same think man! I seen you being acting odd these past few days!

Zacky: Have I?

Brian: Yeah man, come on sleeping with fans is not like you!

Zacky: I suppose, I'm just I dunno lonely I guess!

Brian: Has nothing to do with you having possible feelings for Olivia or Poppy?

Zacky: What?

Brian: Come on this weirdness all started once we left London so it has to be something to do with Liv or Pops!

Zacky: Fine yeah, your right! I like one of them and I can't get her outta my fucking head, I think I love her!

Brian: Who?

Zacky: Poppy

Brian: Oh right! Well listen I know she loves Padge

Zacky: I know, she told me

Brian: Oh she knows about your crush?

Zacky: Yeah I told her before she flew to America to surprise Padge and Jai and she responded with not you too!

Brian: What does that mean?

Zacky: Someone else likes her too!

Brian: Who?

Zacky: I will tell you but please don't mention any of this to anyone! Nobody else knows man

Brian: OK I promise I won't tell anyone but Zacky if I can pick up on this then I'm sure the rest will too so you gotta pull yourself together man!

Zacky: I know I'm driving myself crazy, Jason is the other person that likes her!

Brian: Really?

Zacky: Yeah and when Poppy found out about the 2 of us liking her, she said she only sees us all as big older protective brothers she never had!

Brian: Surely that makes it easier to get over her Zacky? She clearly doesn't feel the same!

Zacky: U think it would but Brian I can't get her outta my head, when I slept with those fans all I saw was Poppy's face man, I tried to get over her but I just can't.

Brian: I dunno what else to say man, maybe you should talk to Johnny and Matt and see if they can help you, this might get outta hand if you don't sort it out, it would be a shame if you lost Padge as a mate.

Zacky: I never wanna come between Padge and Poppy, I know they love each other and Poppy is the happiest she has being in a long time, I do need to get her outta my head, I want to be her friend but its just hard.

Brian: I know, try stay off social media for a bit Zacky, I presume you are staring at her holiday pics and being envious of Padge!

Zacky: Yeah

Brian: Look the best advice I can give U is stay off social media for a bit, talk to the guys if you have to and please whatever you do don't let this get back to Padge, I don't think he could cope with this!

Zacky: Thanks Bri

Brian: Have you eaten?

Zacky: Not being hungry much lately!

Brian: That's no good either, we don't need you collapsing cos you not eating man, come on we go down to the bar and get a bite!

Zacky: Yeah OK

So myself and Zacky Head down to the hotel's bar and we order in some food, I ate some fish to help build up my protein levels and some vegetables, Zacky had steak and we both washed it down with a few beers. We go back up to our rooms after paying for our meal and we prepare for our gig tonight in Nosturi. We can't wait to play here, this is where the very best of metal mostly played in Helsinki. Finland is truly one of the best places to go to for the Metal scene.

Zacky's P.O.V

Fuck my secret is outta the bag, Fuck Fuck Fuck!!!!
I suppose Brian is right in a way, I do have to work on getting over her and it will do me no good to keep sleeping with the fans. He is right I should stay off social media for a while, Poppy loves Padge and I can't ruin that for her after the shitty time she had being with that Adam guy, Padge makes her happy and that's something that I should not ruin on any of them because Padge has had it rough too.

Brian made me get a feed as I wasn't eating right either. Brian had fish while I struggled with a serlion steak, we both had a couple of beers too and then we payed for meals and returned to our rooms before having to head to Nosturi for rehearsals and gig. Finland is frigging awesome.

It was no time to go to the venue for our soundcheck, the cars arrived to take us there and we already started boozing. Michelle and Val were making sure we had eaten before we got too wasted, those two have always being like that when in tour with us and I suppose only for them we all probably be in the gutter now drinking very hard, doing extreme amount of drugs or dead!

Avatar and FFDP got the crowds going like usual and then we took to the stage. The crowd was frigging mental, When we finished up the drinks started flowing and we had an awesome time. For a few hours I didn't think about Poppy and I soon went to my hotel room to sleep.

Jeremy's P.O.V

Fucking gotta love Finland, what an amazing show, everyone of us put in 100% tonight including the fans. Everyone soon celebrated but myself and Ivan left them to it after a while and went to our rooms to sleep. Before I fell asleep I watched a bit of TV and called my family back home. This touring sucks sometimes, especially when we away from family for so many months at a time.