Hollow (Harry Styles) #Wattys2016

Chapter 93

Songs:

Skinny Love: Birdy

Collide: Howie Day

Dark Times: The Weeknd Ft. Ed Sheeran

Lyin King: Jhene Aiko

Hopelessly Devoted To You: Olivia Newton-John

Little Do You Know: Alex & Sierra

Harry's POV

The first five minutes of the drive to the airport were nothing but complete silence. Awkward silence. Esteban was not one to shy away from words, so hearing absolutely nothing come out of his mouth was actually eerie, in a way.

"Harry," he finally spoke, clearing his throat. "I know it's none of my business, but are you okay?" He asked cautiously.

"Of course," my voice went high pitched, my hands gripping the steering wheel. "I'm perfectly fine."

"Losing a baby, can be hard-"

"You're right," I cut him off. "It's none of your business," I snapped.

"You're right, and I'm sorry, but, Katarina is my business," he spoke firmly, a vast contrast from his tone moments ago. "You're hurting, that's understandable, but that doesn't mean you can't take it out on her, it's not her fault."

"She was going to have an abortion," I yelled, the grip on the wheel getting tighter.

"You know, better than anyone, that she would have never done that."

"But, she was going to, she told me."

"I know," he sighed. I looked at him, wondering how he knew. "Odette told me," he informed me. Of course she did, that big mouth, I swear. "But, if you love, Katarina, the way you say you do. The way your eyes say you do, you know that she would have never gone through with that. Not only because it is something that she is against, but because she loved that baby, and she loved you, she would have never taken that from you. I know you know that.

Don't let your pain blind you from what's really important. Yes, you lost a baby, but you still have each other. That is, if you stop this and wake up. Otherwise, you are going to lose each other. It's easy for you both to take each other for granted, but you will regret it when one of you gets tired of this and walks away."

I stayed silent the rest of the drive. Esteban's words sinking in, and he was right. This was all screwed up, we were all screwed up, there was no denying that. I just wanted things to go back to normal. I wanted us to stop this pain and stop blaming each other, well, I had to stop blaming her. It truly wasn't her fault and it wasn't fair of me to keep pinning it on her.

I loved her, more than anything in this world, and I couldn't handle it if I wasn't with her. I wouldn't survive it. But, I didn't know how I was supposed to end this. I was still hurting and she made it easy for me to take out my pain and anger out on her. I knew that no matter what I did, she was always going to be there when I came back to her. I think that's partly what our problem was. We were in so deep for each other that we hadn't set any boundaries and I was taking advantage of that. And it didn't help that everyone was telling me how screwed up I was. I knew it, I didn't have to be reminded constantly.

Once Esteban was at the airport and his plane was being boarded, I went straight to my car and pulled out my phone. There was only one person who could give me the guidance I needed right now, my mum.

I dialed her number, pressing the phone to my ear as I waited. After four rings, she finally picked up. "Harry, sweetheart, what's wrong? It's late."