The Black Queen

Forty first Entry

July 6, 1992

Marty and I have come to the decision of having a divorce. He really didn't take it that well, obviously. I feel so horrible about what I've done, and I mean I feel bad about how I affected Marty. I could have done something different to make this all go easier. That probably wouldn't have happened, but it doesn't matter anymore. It's all done.

We had to have a talk with Skylar today. I called her from her room to join us in the living room. We both sat on the couch and she sat across from us.

"Skylar, you're father and I have decided to make some changes in this family." I started off

"What kind of changes?" She asked

"Well.. Um, you see, daddy is going to live in another house, and I'm going to stay in this one."

"Why is daddy moving to another house?"

"Because mommy and I aren't very happy together anymore." Marty said. "We just don't feel the same about each other anymore. You'll understand someday, I promise."

"Am I going to have to choose between you two?"

"No honey" I began. "You won't have to. You are going to stay with us on certain days." She remained silent. No one talked for a while.

"I know this is hard for you" Marty started off. "But its just something we are all going to have to get used to."

"Ok" she said. We allowed her to go back to her room afterwards. It was just the two of us now. Marty began to go to the kitchen when he said:

"See what you've done? You should stop thinking about yourself. Like how about telling her who her father is."

I got up and began to follow him.

"You don't have to tell me what to do." I said. He opened the refrigerator and got a beer out.

"Jesus, Dahlia, she's five years old she deserves to know who her father is. Do it now before it becomes harder to do it later." He opened the beer and drank from it

"I won't"

"Why not"

"Because I'm still scared of her getting involved  with shit she has nothing to do with."

"What is there she'll het involved with? Roger's fame is not as big as it was two years ago. What could he possibly do? He has two children and a wife. What could he possibly do thats crazy."

"Im just scared that Skylar will hate me."

"Well, like I said: Do it now before it becomes harder later."

He threw his empty bottle in the trash. He walked out of the house. He was right, but it didn't mean I was going to do it.

-Dahlia