Crazy stupid love

Chapter 49

"Sorry to interrupt. Syd can I talk to you?" He said and I froze.

"What do you want to talk about?" I ask once my family leaves the room. "There is absolutely nothing to talk about you gave up on us."

"I had no other choice but to give up, You didn't give me any other choice. What was I supposed to do?" He asked and I knew he was right.

"I don't know, you could have waited for me to get my-"

"Sydney are you kidding me. I waited 8 months after we broke up and tried everything I possibly could to get you back during that time. I get that you were mad at me I was mad at myself too but you can't say I didn't wait for you." He raised his voice and furrowed his eyebrows.

"The worst part is I still am. I'm still waiting and I don't think I'll ever stop because I love you too much." He sighed pulling at his roots and sat down on the couch.

"I'm sorry. this isn't what I came here for." He breathed out trying to control his nerves.

"Why did you come then?" I sat down to calm my nerves too.

"you know how you're going back to Colorado this year." I nodded my head and he scratched the back of his head. A clear sign of nervousness. "Well uhm we're kind of going with you."

"What?!" I yelled.

"Yeah and I was just gonna ask if we could spend the two weeks without fighting. We don't have to be friend or anything I just don't want to fight anymore." I nodded and he smiled.

"Can I get a hug?" He asked looking down at his feet and I rolled my eyes. "Of course." I hug him and we both relax in each others arms.

~New Years Eve~

Ever since we've been in Colorado I've been more relaxed. Ross and I decided it would be best if we didn't fight every time we see each other and till this point it's going pretty well. Shawn asked Casey to be his girlfriend the day we left and she said yes. They are the cutest thing ever.

I'm so glad he moved on from Rydel. As much as I love her all she did was make my brother sad.

For Christmas the lynches and my family combined and we had a huge family gathering. This year I got a sibling ring from Shawn, new doc martins from Rydel, Sabrina got me a leather jacket, Sky got me some make up, some really cool speakers from ryland, Sarah got me a VS perfume, Rocky got me a shirt that says 'Rocky's main hoe' which made me laugh, Riker got me a pair of aviator glasses and Ross got me a gold heart locket necklace with a picture of us inside.

For my birthday I had dinner with both families and we went ice skating later that night.

Now it's New Year's Eve. When I woke this morning I didn't feel as excited about it like last year. Maybe it's the fact that I'm alone this year and won't have anyone to be happy with next year, I don't know. I push the thought to the back of my mind and head downstairs where Stormie and my mom are cooking breakfast.

"Hey mom, hi stormie." I hug them both.

"Hey sweets. What are you doing up so early?" Stormie asks while flipping some pancakes.

"I don't really like over sleeping till noon." I tell her while taking a seat on a stool next to the kitchen island.

"Morning." Shawn comes into the kitchen yawning. He hugs me and smiles at mom and Stormie.

After almost 2 hours everyone started coming down except for one person, Ross.

It is now 5 o'clock. Mom and stormie are starting dinner, all of us are in the living room watching tv and small talking. Ross still hasn't came out and I'm getting a little worried.

"Guys I'm going to go check on Ross." I announce and head up to his room.

I open the door to see it empty his guitar was on the bed and a notebook next to it, but he wasn't there. I moved towards the bathroom and knocked on the door receiving no answer. I slowly opened the door to see him laying cold on the floor, a razor in his hand and his wrist gushing with blood.

"Oh my gosh! Ross!" I run towards him and try to wake him up. "Ross please don't leave me. Why did you do this?" I cried holding his head and laying it on my chest.

"I should have told you how I felt instead of being a stubborn bitch and pushing you away. I'm sorry. Ross please don't leave me. I love you baby." I cry harder and move some hair out of his face to kiss his forehead.

"Hey shorty are you there?" Rocky yelled from the hall. "Rocky! Rocky! call your parents. Ross is unconscious!" He widens his eyes when he enters the bathroom at the sight of his brother he runs out and calls his parents. Soon after the ambulance came and we were on our way to the hospital.