[Hoseok's POV]
Somehow all my nerves disappear when the music starts. Dancing is my way of expressing myself and any and every feeling I have inside. I hope the guys can see this too and appreciate it.
Looking at Jimin in the middle of the routine I can see his big and beautiful smile which gives me the power to keep going. I love him and having him smile up at me while I'm dancing just makes me so happy.
I try to focus on every single dance move, every single detail. I really want to impress these guys. So I have to focus and dance my heart out. I'm too scared to see the other's reactions so I just try to avoid eye contact with them.
When I dance it's like nothing else really matters anymore, it's just me and the music. It's like I'm married to the music.
When the music stops I look at the 6 boys at the back of the studio. All of them but one have their mouthes wide agape. The other one just has a really big smile on his beautiful face. The smile that I love so very much.
Jimin gets up and starts clapping excitedly, soon followed by Jungkook and Tae, then Jin and Yoongi and lastly Namjoon, who gets up and walks over to me. When he's right in front of me he stops and says:
"That was.... Amazing. Since my name is R A P Monster not D A N C E Monster I think you could teach me a lot." Oh my good lord, I wasn't expecting this. Oh man holy shit, somehow this puts the bar for my rapping even higher.
"Now... I really hope your rapping is as good as your dancing, otherwise I'm going to be very disappointed." From the corner of my eye I can see Jimin's face become more serious.
"Believe me Namjoonah, it is. It's not Rap Mon level but it's the second best." My little Jiminie suddenly speaks up. I'm so glad to have him here with me.
The others get up and everyone starts clapping. I can feel my face burning as I just nervously giggle and stare at the ground until I get pulled into a tight hug.
"You were amazing, babe." Jimin whispers softly before kissing my cheek.
"Aaaawwww" all the others cheer simultaneously.
"You guys are so cute!!" Tae screams as he practically jumps Jimin and I. When he lets go I can see both his big box smile and Jimin's amazing eye smile and it makes me so happy to see the both of them smile up at me like that.
"Okay Hoseok, now we know you can dance... I want to hear you rap. We all do." Namjoon says and the others nod in agreement.
Jimin is the first to leave the dance studio and we all follow him out and into the recording studio.
Once again Jimin and I decide that I should the same song I did for just him a couple days ago. This way I won't only be able to show off my rapping but my singing as well.
I've never been more nervous for than I am right now. Standing behind that mic with 6 extremely talented guys there to judge whatever I do next is scaring the hell out of me. I have to do good. For myself. For Jimin. For anything and everything I've ever wanted.
This is my one chance to prove that I am worth it.
[Jimin's POV]
As he's standing there I can see the anxiety on his face. He's nervous but I know he's ready. I know he's going to give his all and show everyone how amazing he is.
The music starts playing and he closes his eyes. The emotion in his voice is way more intense than it was the first time and as I look at his perfect lips moving and producing the most beautiful music I've ever heard I suddenly feel a tear rolling down my cheek. I'm crying but I'm smiling because I can feel the sound waves reach all the way into my heart.
There's nothing in the world that matters more to me than this shy but beautiful boy standing right there in front of me.
The longer I watch him the more I can see that he's not singing for anyone but for himself. I remember the words his father yelled at him the day we first went to his house; how he wasn't worth living because he could never do anything right. This is something he needed to do. To realise that he can do something right, that he is most definitely worth it.
He is worth every breath, every second, everything.
As he gets to the end of the song I can see a tear slowly rolling down his cheek and when the song ends I can't stop myself from getting up and hugging him tighter than I have before. In this moment we are more connected than ever. I can feel his chest pumping against mine and his tears touching my face. His fists are clenched onto my shirt and mine around his.
I know the others are still in the room but we don't care about them right now. Hoseok has just overcome a major obstacle that has been in his way for so long. His fear of failing was holding him back from auditioning in the first place, that's why he ran away earlier.
"You have nothing to fear anymore..."
He hugs me just a bit tighter before letting go and looking in Namjoon and the others' direction.
"Well..."
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I can't decide how much I actually hate this chapter. I'm so inspirationless (that's not a word Idc)
I'm sorry I took so much time to write such a shitty chapter. I promise I'll try to do better on the next.
Tell me if it's bad.
Mianhaeyo. Saranghaeyo ❤️
