Trying to Belong

Chapter 17

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There was lightning, wind and a heavy downpour of rain that was battering against the hospital windows. It was difficult not to notice as Rey waited in the hospital waiting room to hear word on Amethyst. She was going to go into the delivery room with her friend, when Kylo turned up. Kylo specifically told the nurses to make sure Rey didn't go near the room. So Rey had no idea what was going on.

Very much like Rey was doing at that moment, Kylo blamed her for what happened.

For the first time in a long time, she broke down and started sobbing. Covering her face with her hands she cried until there was none left.

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"They can't be early. They won't make it." Amethyst had tears as the doctors waited on the epidural to set.

"Advancements have been made. We must still be hopeful." Kylo told Amethyst. He was inwardly in pain but he had to be a rock for her, a voice of perhaps optimistic reasoning. He'd get angry, and lash out, maybe get upset and cry later when he wasn't around her. "This is why they're going to get our son and daughter out. So they can give them the care to survive. This is a tactic, a procedure to help."

"The chances are small." cried Amethyst, terrified. "I'm not good at anything am I? Why did I think I should have been a mother?"

"Do not say that." Kylo kissed her hand.

"It's true."

"You're good at being a good person. I've tutored you in the ways of math but you've shown me what a good person is. You're a good person and you care so much and that is why you're going to be a good mother. You're still going to be a good mother."

"I'm not. They're going to die."

"They're still alive. It's their place of residence that's dying. Ame. You are strong. You can do this. This is your chance to save them. But you have to be strong for them. You and I. We're together: always together."

Amethyst nodded, her head resting against him and she cried into his chest.

After five minutes it was time for them to perform the C-section. Kylo held Amethyst's hand the whole time. There was no time to waste when the doctors got the babies out, they were rushed away on carts.

"Go!" yelled Amethyst. "Never mind me! Go!"

Kylo let go of Amethyst's hand, looking back at her reluctantly before going to check on his children, while the remaining doctors tended to Amethyst.

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Kylo took Amethyst down to the care ward for the infants when she'd recovered from the epidural in a wheelchair. She was in a lot of pain. It was a large room filled with special intensive care units for babies born preterm and/or with other serious problems. It was nothing but the most depressing and heart crushing place to be for Amethyst. Like Kylo said. She cared. She knew what other parents were probably going through and it was if she could feel it on her shoulders, not just the worry for her only children, the heartbreak that she'd failed them but it was if she could the feel the suffering of all the babies and their parents in that room.