Chromatic Musings

Insecurity

With success
Comes hate
And judgement
With newfound fame
Or an award
Comes new speculation
And observation
You feel tiny
And ostracized
You feel defiant
But you check yourself
Anyway
Once or twice
A dozen times
Arrogant and egotistical
Proud and rude
All of them are fired
At a safe and wordless
Distance
Out of the foggy blue
Fishing for compliments
When you give
Your congrats
And if that's
How it is
Fine
You do that
But the niggling
Thought
Jiggles in your
Restless mind
Are you vain
Or haughty
If you are
What of it
There are others
Who brag and boast
And yet one
Who never speaks
Is now the meal's
Roast
Why is it
That you will
Never be accepted
Whether you keep
Silent and still
Or become
The talk of the mill
No matter what
They talk about you
Behind your back
And it's tiring
And exhausting
To go through
That thick and stuffy
Track.