Chromatic Musings

Leave

Please go away
You've had your chance
I don't want you to stay
I'm in a hazy trance
I know how I am
To be honest
I can be kind
I can be sweet
I can be the greatest friend
That you'd ever want me to be
But I'm also a monster
I'm horribly cruel
And terribly vain
I am very capable
Of inflicting pain
I have flaws
And I make mistakes
Just like any other
But so hurt am I
So awfully alone
I can't help but cry
Because nobody
Could've known
From appearance
And my facade
I'm cheerful
Yet a bit shy
No one could've guessed
That every night
I had to cry
There's always a reason
One way or another
For my conflicting bafflement
The way I have to blubber
I feel so weak
And tired too
Something I seek
Is nothing new
My secret wish
Will it ever be fulfilled
Because it seems
To me that it won't
When I'm sad
Or even if I'm mad
They scold me
And ignore these
Trembling feelings I hold
But with the others
They soothe and they embrace
They wipe away the tears
From their little face
I am the oldest
So it doesn't matter
What I want to know is
Why did my heart shatter
Upon realizing this
I've been brave for so long
My heart was steel
So why did it hurt
Why did it break
I just want to sleep
All these days away
Because reality is
Something I hate
I wouldn't want to stay
Fantasy and dreams
Is where I dwell
I'm utterly free
My heart seems to swell
Don't you say you care
Don't you say it to me
Please be patient
Allow me to grieve
Please give me time
If you want to leave
That'll be just fine.

~fin~