Chromatic Musings

Piano

I didn't know
Until now
That you
Were gone
It took me
Six months
To find out
And I was
Speechless
I had nothing
To say
I didn't cry
But somehow
I'm still grieving
All of a sudden
I'm remembering
The stories you
Shared
The scoldings
You gave
On not practicing
Enough
The praises you'd give
When my playing
Was excellent
I regret now
That I didn't
Play for you more
I left lessons
Four years ago
And I remember
Being too much
Of a coward
To tell you
Face to face
I made a card
And explained
My reasons
And later I heard
You had cried
And I remember
Feeling guilty
But also relieved
To be free of
Long hours
Tapping out songs
That held no meaning
But now I wish
I had stayed
To talk
To learn more
About you
I remember
Wishing horribly
That you might die
As a child
And then I'd be free
But I chastise myself
And now I see
That piano connected
You and I
And I ache
At finding out
Somehow
And I remember
Coming back
To play you a song
I learned all
On my own
I was confident
And prideful
And I recall
Your frown
At the fast
Battle theme
I played
You were hesitant
And concerned
And I wish
My fingers had danced
A lullaby to soothe you
I regret not tapping
A cheerful little tune
I wish and wish and wish
That it wasn't too late
But alas it is
I played a song
In memory of you
A few minutes ago
I hope you enjoyed it
More than the last
I played for you
I promise that
I'll make you proud
I'll play for you
And even though
I can't see you
Maybe you're with me
Standing beside
The piano
As my fingers dance
And twirl over and out
As they slide across and meet
Maybe you're there
With me
As I play along
To my heart's beat.