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Chapter 28: Stuff Your Goodbyes

Souji POV

"Souji wake up! You need to train! The tour is in eight months, you need to be in the peak of health!" My dad yelled, pulling back the covers and flipping my mattress -sending me to the floor, which hurt! "I KNOW BUT I CAN SLEEP IN ON A SATURDAY DAD GET OUT!" I threw a random article of clothing in his face and he grumbled.

"Chizuru is here along with Heisuke." He muttered and slammed my door. "God damn it..." I muttered, snatching a random pair of shorts and heading down stairs still half sleeping. "Heyyyy guys." I yawned and they laughed.

"We are heading to the park, you know so our parents can't say we spent all day inside on technology *cough* Heisuke *cough*." Chizuru ever so sitting hinted. "I like games! What is so bad about that!" Heisuke whined. I nodded, "Happy dad? I can train at the park!" I yelled to the kitchen and he yelled back, "Chizuru make sure he does seventy five laps of the fountain! No less! No breaks!"

"Yes sir!" She called back giggling and I groaned. "I won't be able to walk after that you know, lemme get dressed for actually leaving the house then." I grumbled.

It's the goddamn summer holidays and I'm training even harder for the Worlds, plus working through my mountain of summer homework to get ready for senior year. Fuuuuuuck I wish Hajime was here, at least he could use sex to motivate me....

"SOUJI COME ON!"

"SHUT UP HEISUKE!" I yelled back, I'm pissed I haven't heard anything from Hajime, I've text him, call him I even sent him a copy of my goddamn report showing of my straight A's and A star for literature! LITERATURE!!!
Slipping my trainers on I jumped over the banister ignoring the steps, and grabbed my phone, headphones, wallet and keys. "Let's go." I said to them.

Heisuke and Chizuru sat on the grass bank beside the fountain as I ran laps, every time I got close I would hear snippets of their conversation then Chizuru would roll out the lap I was on, "48!" She laughed and I sighed, steadying my pace a little. It'll all be worth it when I win the Worlds, just a few more months, I encouraged myself. It's so fucking hard to stay motivated these days, nothing is worth doing yet I keep doing it over and over and over again.

"50!"

The rest of the year was only bearable because I threw myself head first into studying and didn't come up for air once; if I had I would have realised how much it's hurts when the one person worth doing anything for on the other side of the world and ignores everything you sent them.

"51!"

Why couldn't he have just replied? How could he just cut me off like that? I thought I meant something to him! That we actually had something real! He nearly said he loved me! Why couldn't he have just said it! I love you Souji! What the fuck is so hard?! It four fucking words!

"52!"

Bastard, if he shows his face to me I'm going o knock the shit out of him! He knew how I felt! He knew I loved him! I still fucking love him! Everything I'm doing is to make him proud! I'm studying harder than anyone in my year! I'm at the top of the class in ever subject! INCLUDING FUCKING HIJIKATA SENSEIS LITERATURE CLASS!

"53!"

Anger, misery, determination, heartache, lust, love, joy - every emotion under the goddamn sun are what he has made me feel! With his goddamn purple hair, and beautiful blue eyes and toned chest and arms and those soft pale lips, his cute as hell as- Okay stop Souji your gonna get a boner in public.

"Fifty fo- oh my god. Heisuke is that?!" I stopped for a sloppy second and my legs turned to jelly as I collapsed on the ground, "Chizuru I was in the zone!" I whined, I can't fucking move now!
"Is it? It is!! Who has that purple hair huh?!" Heisuke jumped up, pointing across the fountain. Raising my head off the ground I looked over and my heart stopped.

A tall man stood on the other side, his purple hair long to the bottom of his neck, his perfect posture and blue shirt I would recognise anywhere. Crawling to my knees, my muscles burned painfully but I pushe myself up, bursting into a sprint entirely depended on the desperation of my heart.

"HAJIME SAITO!" I screamed, tackling the man who was startled at my scream. Diving forward, I tackled him to the ground and people stared in horror or shock, "WHEN THE FUCK DID YOU GET BACK TO JAPAN YOU FUCKING NERD?!" I screamed at the wide eyed boy. His mouth opened and closed before he gulped. "WELL?! ANSWER ME BEFORE I PUNCH YOU!" I yelled at him.

"Souji!" "Okita-San!" Heisuke and Chizuru ran towards us. "Oh my god it is you!" Chizuru screamed.

"Souji, get off me." Hajime said quietly below me. I was shocked at how bored he sounded, "You don't care." I said hurt, "What did you just forget about us?!" I said as my eyes welled with tears that I refused to let fall.

"Souji, I didn't forget you. Nor you Chizuru or Heisuke." He said calmly, we were all shocked by his behaviour. "You've changed." I spat at him. "We don't know you anymore. What kind of friend ignores every chance at contact we tried to give. We heard nothing from you! For five months! Go back to your goddamn America!" I yelled frustrated.

"I came to say goodbye once and for all." He stepped forward but I stepped back, pullin Chizuru and Heisuke with me. "Stuff your goodbyes. Just leave Saito-San." I said to the stranger in front of me. His eyes widened at the name I called him, "Souji I-"

"It's Okita-San. Stranger."

Ah crap. Hope you enjoyed reading! Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistake! I suck ass at those but aw well it's my book who gives a fuck? Not me!

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