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Chapter 38: Coming Home

Hajime POV

Mistake. This was a mistake. A big, big mistake. Huge.

Nyx stood in front of me, talking into a microphone beside him, interviewing him. I was looking directly at him. And regretting it so badly. I wanted to run at it him, wrap my arms around his neck and cry on his shoulder, I wanted him to hold me as tight as he could to him to say he regretted what he said, to say he didn't mean any of it. I want to tell him I still love him, to tell him the green grass now covered with snow at the university remind me of his green eyes, how I miss kissing him how I miss how perfectly our bodies fit together like a perfect mould.

But I can't.

Because right beside him is my boyfriend. The first guy I've taken a liking, a huge liking to since him. Someone who wants to be with be, someone who wants to hear about my ambitions, someone who wants me just for me. Nyx is that someone. He doesn't want me for sex. It hasn't come up once, we've only been together two weeks since he first asked out but still.

I like the way he kisses me, the way he holds me in his arms, the way he asks about the little things, the way his face lights up when our eyes meet and how he makes me feel like I can leave him in my past and love someone else. He makes me feel like I could love him, that I could fall completely and utterly in love with him and that this love, this love I'm feeling right now for the man who broke my heart, will disappear.

"So I heard you weren't always the best student in school Mr Okita, ten you miraculously turned it around. Care to share how?" Nyx smiled kindly, at him. His jade eyes flickered to me, sending sparks up my back. Literally sending shivers through my body with just a damn look. That bloody dickhead.

"I got a good tutor." He said shortly. "He's the only reason I'm where I am now. Too bad he didn't care long enough to stick around to see how I turned out." He said, his eyes connecting with mine again. Nyx's eyes flickered to me as well and I ducked my head. Turning, I had my back to them as I squeezed my eyes shut.

What the fuck does that fucking dickhead mean, stick around long enough?! Tears built in my eyes and I rushed to the bathroom, glaring at myself in the mirror. "You damn idiot, why did you agree to this?" I hissed at my red eyed self. "Nyx told you he was interviewing competitors for the Martial Arts championship. You idiot why didn't you think?! You heard it on the news!" I sneered at myself.

Look at me. I'm yelling at my own damn reflection. Sighing heavily, I took out my phone and saw Nyx text me. He asked was I okay, I replied that I just needed the bathroom. Dropping my phone on the sink went and grabbed some tissue paper, and splashing water in my face. "Stop crying Hajime." I ordered myself. Drawing in a shaky breath, I headed out of the bathroom again.

Nyx was done, he was no where in sight so I helped Nyx pack up his camera an equipment. "Did it go okay?" I asked him and he nodded. "He seemed a bit stiff, maybe he doesn't like interviews. Or maybe it was me? Was it me? Did I come off as pushy?" Nyx worries but I shook my head and pecked his cheek. "No you were really friendly, a natural." I encouraged him and he put a head on my shoulder. "You're the best. I was so nervous, thank you for coming." He pecked below my ear and I bit my lip, gasping.

Nyx smirked, "You're so cute, and I love kissing you there." He grinned as I blushed. This is what I mean, he just makes me feel so wanted, moments like these are when I truly believe I can fall in love with him.

"What are you thinking so hard about?" Nyx asked as he picked up on of his cases and I the other. "Nothing really, just some things." I smiled softly to myself. "Anything bothering you?" He asked, his eyebrows creased a little bit I shook my head. "No, they're good thoughts. No need to worry." I smiled but then stopped as we reached the elevator.

"Crap I forgot my phone. I'll run and grab it." I said and dropped the case, "Okay, meet me at the car. I'll put this stuff in then we can go get dinner yeah?" Nyx asked and I nodded. "Kiss." He grabbed my arm as I turned to leave and crashed his lips to mine. He grinned into the kiss and I smiled. "See you in a minute." He grinned as the elevator door closed and I ran down the hall.

Opening the hotel door, I went into the bathroom but my phone wasn't on the sink, "Looking for this," I froze, "Hajime-Kun?" I felt his presence right behind me, his voice near my neck. I was paralysed, completely unable to move as my heart tried to escape my ribcage. Shit, shit, shit. He took a hold of my wrist, turning me slowly as my body wouldn't cooperate.

He pressed me against the cold tile wall, staring straight into my eyes. Those jade eyes, that still held that mischievous twinkle where smirking at me. "I wasn't expecting to see you here." He said and stepped even closer to me. My breath hitched as i stared at him, my mouth was slightly open as I tried to think of anything to say. My mind was yelling, my heart was screaming.

Suddenly, his arms went around my waist, pulling me tightly to him while my arms hung loosely at my side. Then he whispered those fateful words, "I've missed you so much," his lips brushed against my neck as he spoke, "I regret what I said. It was all a lie, I didn't just want you because of that. I said that because-"

"Souji." I finally spoke.

Souji POV

He said my name, I stopped talking and pulled back to look at his sharp blue eyes to find them over flowing with tears. Fat streams of tears were pouring down his face, his cheeks were scorching red and his jaw was locked. "Let go of me." He whispered. "Please."

Refusing, I held him tighter, putting his arms around my neck I held him as close as I possibly could, his tears soaking through my uniform. "No. I can't, I can't let you go again Hajime. I already made that mistake. Twice." I buried my head in his neck when suddenly he returned my hug. His arms tightened around me, his hands gripping my shirt so tightly I felt his fingers dig into my skin.

"Damn you. You damn dickhead." He cried. "I love you Hajime, I have never and will never stop loving you." I looked down at him and he looked up at me. Bowing my head, I didn't something I've wanted to do for a long time.

I kissed him.

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