Admit it

Chapter 29: Distance my ass!

Saito POV

They seem to hate me....it's working then.

Souji POV

Heisuke was cuddling a snivelling Chizuru as I paced back and forth in my kitchen. "Damn bastard, how could he just turn up! Then act all 'I just wanted to say goodbye' Shit! How dare he?! Does he even realise how hard I've been working for him?! Or how much i-we missed him!!!?" I screamed, shoving a glass off the countertop.

"Souji stop! You're scaring Chizuru! For all we know Saito wasn't allowed to keep contact with any of us! His mother moved him for a reason." Heisuke hissed at me, then kissed Chizuru in the head, "Chizuru-chan, please don't cry..." I sighed and sat beside her. "I'm sorry Chizuru-chan, please don't cry." I pleaded with her. She sniffed, looking up at me.

"Go and see him, you need to more than we do Souji. Heisuke and j will go." She took Heisuke hands and they left me in my house by myself. I want to kill someone in so angry right now!

"I just got...possessive and angry. It was either kiss you or kill him." I shrugged and Hajime collapsed beside me. "Pick the first one every time please, you'll get arrested if you do the latter." He said and I rolled over so
my  head was on my chest, my breathe at his nipple as his face went red.

Well he said it.

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Saito POV

I stared at the empty house that I used to call home when I lived in Japan. My mother kept the house since she travels back and fourth so frequently. "I shouldn't have come back, this is a mistake!" I held my head, hunkering down on my knees and j pulled at my hair. "The pain, it's all coming god damn back! Why did I do this! Why could I have just left it where k did! I was finally starting to feel okay..." I cried miserably.

My mother was out, I was back in this empty house by myself and the one person I love most in the world hates me, "Saito-San. Stranger." His words rang out so clear, his expression etched into my face. Why was he so heart broken? He never tried to contact me, what was he talking about!

My phone blared and I crashed into a box laying on the floor and ended up on my back, "moshi moshi." I answered tiredly, not wanting to talk to anyone.
"Dude I don't speak Japanese."

"Jason!" I sat up quickly. "Hey Hajime! So how's Japan?" He asked and I laughed bitterly, "Yikes that was a sad laugh bro, that bad?" He said worriedly. "Yeah, Jason I made a mistake. They hate me, I should have come back. I'm coming home in two days, can I stay with you?" I asked.

"Of course you can, my parents love you I mean who couldn't?" He laughed.

"Souji couldn't..." I mumbled and he froze up on the line. "Hajime, forget about him. Think of all the fun you're gone have with your bestfriends when they all get back and we are all together again!" He cheered through the phone. I set it on speaker and lay on the floor.

"It hurts way more than I thought t would Jason, I wasn't ready for this. I'll never be ready to see the hate in his eyes." I admitted woefully. "Hajime, you have friends at home who love you. Come back to us buddy, leave your old life behind. If you keep looking to the past you'll miss your future." Jason said and I laughed. Suddenly heavy foot steps behind me made me jump.

"So your new boyfriends a fucking poet huh?" His green eyes blazed down at me, "Souji? What are you-" I started but he grabbed my phone. "Fuck off." He spat and ends the call. "Hey! That was my best friend!" I yelled angrily at him.

"WHAT ABOUT HEISUKE? OR CHIZURU WHO YOU LEFT IN TEARS?!" He suddenly screamed at me. His anger sent flash back to when he first picked on me. "I didn't mean to make her cry..." I said slowly.

"Well you did a damn good job of it!" He grabbed my collar, hauling me up and pressing me against the wall, "Tell me what the fuck your doing back here. I want the truth, if you lie I will hurt you and believe I'm much stronger than before you left." He hissed at me.

I could tell, his muscles were so defined even through his short I had trouble touching the ground with the tops of my feet, "S-Souji I c-can't-!" I gasped as no air came through, "Gah!" I gasped and he dropped me. Coughing harshly, I crawled back from him, "Tell me Hajime!" He barked.

"I was trying to....I was trying to make you three hate me, so you wouldn't want to keep contact. So you'd want to cut ties completely and forget me." I whispered, rubbing my clouded eyes.
"Why the hell would you do that?!" Souji barked at me.

"Be as I couldn't stand the pain!" I yelled back upset.

"You dont understand Souji, I was torn away from everything I knew and everyone I loved! I had three days, not even three full days to say goodbye to everything I ever cared about! I had to leave the only friends I had ever had, I've known Heisuke all my life! I met Chizuru in my first year of middle school! I was losing everything and couldn't do a damn thing about it!" I cried at him as fast tears rolled down my cheeks.

"I was torn away from the man I was in love with, fuck sake the man in still in love with." I finally admitted. His fists relaxed and he fell onto his knees beside me. "You do love me..." He whispered. "Yes I do love Souji." I smiled weakly.

"You admitted it." He smirked and grabbed my collar, pulling me underneath him and pushing me into the carpet. "I can never let you go now, not ever." He whispered and kissed the spot below my ear and I moaned loudly. "Fuck I missed you so much." His hands went to my shirt, pulling it from my jeans and pushed it up my chest. "No Souji we can't!" I gripped his hands but his lips cut me off.

"Don't please don't push me away again." He begged, his forehead on mine, "You need to let me go. I'm just hurting you Souji, please forget me." I held his face as my tears reappeared. "No, I won't forget you. Hajime I can't forget you."

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