Admit it

Chapter 41: Remeber When

Souji POV

Sighing heavily, again, I brought the bottle of liquor to my lips. His blue eyes swarmed my mind as I stared at my phone screen. I had gotten no reply from the message I sent him four days ago, so like the brat I am, I am pouting and complaining in my hotel room to myself as my fucking 'girlfriend' is out on a shopping spree. I shivered at the thought of her.

I. Don't. Like. Girls.

Why does she not seem to understand that?! Fuck sake. I swallowed more then my phone blared in my hand, causing me to drop it, "Shit!" I snatched at it, answering it desperately, "Hajime?" I whispered excitedly.

The line went dead.

Hajime POV

Breathing heavily, my eyes wide as I sat on the edge of my bath in the bathroom as I hid in the bathroom. My boyfriend is out on the sofa watching a movie at his very moment and I'm secretly calling Souji.

Not that I've actually spoken to him...

"What am I doing?" Shaking my head I shoved my phone into my back pocket, washing my hands as if to wash away what I just did and went back into the living room and sat on Nyx's lap. He smiled happily, kissing my cheek as I smuggled into his arms. "You're very cuddly today, I'm usually the one clinging to you." He grinned.

Shrugging I pulled the soft purple blanket around our waists, "I just feel like it today...I'm not working and I have no class so I wanted to spend it with you." I blushed, trying my best to stare at the screen, "I'm sorry if I'm bugging you, Nyx." I muttered embarrassed.

Shaking his head he wrapped his arms around my waist, kissing back of my purple hair, "Nonsense. I love it." We went back to quietly watching the movie as I stared mostly at his hands, playing with his fingers. His fingers were long and skinny, like they were exactly for delicate work with technology and and editing. They weren't like Soujis at all, he hand rough hands from fighting, calloused from train-

"God damn it." I swore, looking up to Nyx who was still watching the film intently. I couldnt even tell you what was on, it was a marvel something. He commented every now and then about cut scenes or how the director would have filmed this part and so on. He was so cute when he talked about it, his eyes lit up. I chewed my lip for a moment.

"Ask me something." I said plainly. He raised an eyebrow, "Like what?" He replied. "Um, anything...I don't you think you know much about me other than im Japanese and want to be a teacher. So what do you want to know?" I turned around to face him and he grinned.

Nyx thought for a moment, rubbing a hand through his hair, "How...how many boyfriends have you had? Oh no wait! When did you know you were gay?" He asked. My cheeks went red. "I was 17 when I finally realised. My... Friend at the time kind of made me realise." I said.

Nyx grinned, "I knew when I was fifteen. Pretty young, huh?" I nodded, "How many boyfriends have you had?" He asked me. Damn it, but of course he would ask that question.

"O-only one. But well...yeah just one." I cut myself off. Should I really be talking about Souji, my ex to Nyx, my current boyfriend?

"Oh! What was he like? Tall? Short? Shy like you or not?" He leant forward for the details and I smiled, laughing a little and pecked his lips. "He was tall, taller than me. A completely fitness freak, sucked at school...well until I tutored him and very outspoken. He's got in trouble all the time. Almost expelled too." I chuckled thinking over our many study sessions where he would yell at me to just let him fail, the days that turned to nights in the library, finding way to motivate thin that didn't involve me kissing him and the voice notes we recorded.

I wonder if he still had those....

No way, Hajime. It's been a very long time. Shaking my head, I looked up at Nyx. "What else?" I asked him. He chewed his lip and got up, taking a photo off the table and pointing to it, "Who are they? Old friends from Japan?" He asked.

"Yes, that's Chizuru and Heisuke. They are my best friends-" my phone started ringing and I looked at the screen, my eyes going wide slightly. "Who is it?" Nyx asked, walking over to me. "Souji? Like Souji Okita who I interviewed?" He questioned.

"Nyx I have to tell you something..." I sighed heavily, "Souji....was my first boyfriend. Back in Japan....and..." I shifted awkwardly in my seat, lowering my face. "I took so long in the hotel because he cornered me in the bathroom....and....k-kissed me."

Nyx stared at me, eyes wide with his mouth slightly open as he grabbed my hands, "Did he force you? He kissed you right?" He asked, tears welling at the corner of his eyes. Dropping my head, I squeezed his hand whispering out.

"I kissed him back...."

*walks back in and freezes* What is that? *squints* Is that? OH MY GOD! HI WARRIORS!!!! ITS BEEN FOREVER WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE?!

ANYONE WHO STUCK AROUND I LOVE YOU! YOURE THE BEST!