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Chapter 35: No More Guilt

Saito POV

After starting Yale, my teaching courses and of course training by teaching I different schools across New York, the time began to fly by; Jason proposed to Ella, their getting married during the summer, Connor and Seb have moved i together, much to Sebs fathers dismay might I add but their happy, Sam is engaged to a guy called Mark who seems nice and Skylar...well he's focusing on his career and not really worrying about being in a relationship - same as me.

Loosening my tie, a smile was stuck on my face as I unlocked my apartment after another day of teaching Japanese in one of the local high schools, it's a three month course and if enough kids like it the school will make it a permanent subject option. The students, well most of them, seem to love it apart from a few 'too cool for school' kids who just flick pieces of rubber at me throughout the class.

"Sensei..." I said to myself, they wanted it to be like a real Japanese class so I just continue to address them like I would people in Japan, and they call me Sensei...which makes me feel awesome, I never imagined myself teaching well not before So-

I cleared my throat as I set down my blazer and bag. "Tea, I need tea." I mumbled and opened my cupboards to get a mug and dropped a teabag in. While the kettle boiled I turned on the TV and let the news play in the background.

"A rise in the property market is bad news for first time buyers...." The anchor woman began to read off the news as I unbuttoned my first and second button on my shirt. Pouring the boiling water into my cup, I only bothered to half listen to the news. Looking around I groaned at the mess of my place, I had books and papers everywhere. "Damn it, well better get started.....after my tea." I grinned to myself and brought my cup to my lips.

Suddenly, angry fists battered on my door nearly causing my to spill my tea. A little slipped over the edge and I hissed as it burned my skin, "Shit! Hang on I'm coming!" I called and set the steaming cup down. "Ow..." I whined and opened the door to see Jason.

"Hey man what's u-" I began but his expression was furious, "Whoa whoa whoa!" I tripped back as r rushed past me, "It happened again, it happened a-fucking-gain!" He seethed, pacing my apartment angrily. Closing the door timidly, I stared at him confused, "What happened again?"

"She cheated on me. Why does everyone I love cheat on me?!" He cried, his face a mixture of extreme angry and extreme heartbreak, "Ella cheated? I highly, highly doubt that. What exactly happened?" I said and put the kettle on again. "I walked in and there was some fucking guy there! His hair was all messed up, so was hers and they were all sweaty! Hajime she had sex with him!"

Scanning through possibilities in my head I thought frantically for an explanation, "What did he look like?" I asked. "Black hair, fucking fit as hell like physically, tan and an ugly ass face on him...." He growled. My phone began to blare on the counter so I snatched it quickly as Jason sat and concentrated on the news, "Just chill out for a minute while I take this." I said and he growled an OK.

"Hello?" I said, "Hajime?! Is Jason with you?! He thinks I cheated on him! I swear I didn't! I know it looks bad but I swear I couldn't hurt him like that!!" Ella was crying over the phone, "Tell me everything and yes he's cooling off here."

"Oh thank god I thought he would go and get drunk somewhere..." She began to explain to me the entire situation and I sighed in relief, "He's your personal trainer, why does Jason not know about him?" I questioned. "I dunno, he knows I go to the gym four times a week guess I forgot to mention? I've been working with Jay since I was sixteen so I dunno we're friends....Hjaime please tell him to come home." She pleaded with me. A hand trough my hair j looked over at Jason who was gripping my remote s tightly I was scared it would smash.

"Okay, don't worry Ella but just to make it clear I'm not playing counsellor between you two okay?" I said, this was the second time either one of them has randomly showed up here after a fight and I've played psychologist. "Okay, I promise. Thank you Hajime." She ended the call and k turned to a hunched shoulder, red faced, cost clenched Jason.

"Hey baka, go the hell home and let your fiancé explain what the hell you actually saw and stop jumping to stupid conclusions." I snapped at him as his face widened in surprise, "God damn I feel like I'm in school and being told off again. Maybe you're right..." He sighed.

"I am right. I'm always right." I said then added, "Well mostly. Now - go home!" I laughed and he sighed. "Fuck you for always knowing what to do. Sorry for barging in, see ya man." He said and close my door behind him. "Jesus...." I sighed and finally sat down with my tea.

The news was ins sports now, "And in other news the New York Karate Championships will be under way in next week. Competitors will be coming from all over the world and right here in our very own New York City."
The female anchor said with a huge grin. Her face must hurt after that.

"That's right Barb! We have champions from England, China, Korea, all over the United States and Japan! Japan's world famous Souji Okita will be there representing his label Kettei! Oh its are one one hell of a competition!" The balding, pale headed anchor man beamed.

My tea was forgotten in my hands, my eyes stared at the screen unbelievingly, he can't be coming to New York. Even if he does there is no way I would see him! He'll be here for what a month?
New York is huge! There is no way I will run into him. No way.

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Waking up the next morning, I wasn't teaching today but I did have to attend Yale for a few classes, upon reaching the grounds I heard someone call out to me from behind, "Hey Japan!" That familiar voice filled my ears as I turned to see the brown haired, chocolate eyed boy who has been filtering into my thoughts for a few months now.

"Hey Nyx." I smiled at him and he grinned, "You remembered! How ya been Hajime? I've seen you around campus for a while then you just left! I thought you dropped out." He grinned at me, two coffee cups in his hands. "No I was out on teaching practice actually. I saw you around too..."

He held out one f the cups to me, "Coffee?" His chocolate eyes looked so bright as he smiled at me, "How about we catch lunch and you can tell me all about your teaching practice?" He asked. Like a lunch date? Shit no it's just lunch chill Hajime. "Yeah that would be really cool, so what time?" I asked.

"One? And meet me here, I gotta run sorry. Enjoy the coffee see ya later!" He ran quickly towards a teacher and I blushed to myself. Turning and walking towards the main doors, I felt someone grab my hand, it was Nyx, he was slightly out of breathe from running as his cheeks were pink. "Oh and this is a date okay? I really like you Hajime." He grinned at me.

My mouth fell open and I quickly shut it, "Y-you do? Why?" I said and he laughed, "You're so cute. See you in four hours!" He pecked my cheek and left to class. It is a date! Why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong? Glancing at my blue shirt I grimaced....no come on Hajime, it's time to really, really move on.

"I have a date in four hours...." I grinned to myself quietly. I'm so excited! Without any warning his laugh came into my head and I panicked, wait should I really do this? ....We never went on a real date, we were officially together for like a month and a week there is no need for me to feel guilty. He broke my heart. It's time to let someone heal it.....and Nyx could be that someone. 

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