Gabriel (Book 1)

Secrets

March 15th, 2013

I had spent most of today avoiding people. Especially Johanna, Faine, and Jordan. Faine and Jordan for the obvious reasons that they read minds but Johanna because of what she might be. That sounds horrible, doesn't it? I'm marrying her in 3 days but I can't be near her for fear that she's part werewolf...

What if she doesn't even know?! What if this complicates things?! Oh god! Can't it be possible for me to have a normal, happy wedding?!

I want to be with her now, just to hold her, but I don't know if I could look at her the same way and not feel like the worst fiancée in the entire world. I shot her brother, the man I haven't seen since last night. How will she ever forgive me for that?

I decided that I should just face her, I'm going to have to eventually.

She was sitting on the couch reading a book, the look on her face was lost and in the middle of another world. I love her so much. She doesn't have to do or say anything for my heart to swell when seeing her again. And each time is like seeing her for the first, time stands still and nothing can distract me from her.

I lay on the couch and like she knows what I want, she lifts her book off her lap so I can lay my head in it. I slowly and carefully (because of my shoulder) lay in her lap and stay there. Johanna doesn't say anything, she keeps reading her book, but her free hand is playing with my hair. This is nice. It feels nice and normal. And that's all I could ask for.

"So how was dinner with my brother last night?"

...She just had to ruin the moment!

"We talked."

"And...?" She encourages.

"I didn't know I killed your boyfriend that night in the forest in Pennsylvania."

She stops in mid page turn, she remains completely quiet. I haven't moved from laying in her lap.

"I'm sorry."

She still doesn't say anything.

"Johanna, I-"

She throws her book on the table, "That jerk! I told him to be nice! And I told him not to bring up those kinds of things!" She has her hands covering her face, anger is ebbing off her body.

"I'm glad he told me. Johanna, I want to know everything about you, nothing is 'not important'. I don't care if you had a boyfriend, that was in the past." I reach my hand up and cup her cheek, "But I do care that you seemed to have put your entire life on hold for me and mine."

She grabs my hand and presses it closer to her, "Ours."

A nice moment, right? But again, as all nice moments are, this one is ruined.

The door is thrown open. It hits the wall with a loud bang and Ryder is there in all his glory! Leaning against the door for support and holding his side to stop the bleeding.

"Leave me alone! I don't need help!" He barks at another guy standing right by his side.

Without any consideration to my head, Johanna leaps up from the couch and over to her brother. My head hits the couch and I let out a low groan from the sudden movement of my shoulder.

"What happened?! Why did it happen?!" Johanna screams while trying to help her brother to the couch.

I moved and stood against the wall.

Ryder refuses her help and makes his way over to the couch where he collapses.

"I got shot." He says staring directly at me.