Gabriel (Book 1)

When I See Your Eyes...

April 26th, 2011

I had just about given up, I had almost let everything I once believed in slip away. But she proved them wrong, she proved me wrong.

I had looked at her for so many days and nights, wondering when she would wake up, wondering if she would remember any of it. Jordan was just as nervous as me, probably worse. For some reason today felt like the deadline, today seemed to be the day where we say goodbye. Johanna knocked lightly on the door and then entered. I realized that I had neglected her. I realized that she had supported me by leaving me alone for all this time, and I loved her for it. As much as I know that she wanted to be with me, she wasn't. I know that it seems like a weird kind of support but it means the world that she just watched and let me handle it.

"Gabriel..." She said while placing her hand on my shoulder lightly.

And she didn't have to finish that sentence, I knew what she was going to say.

"I know, Johanna." I reply sadly.

I take Sophia's hand in mine and give it a tight squeeze, saying goodbye, and I thought of one song that seemed so appropriate as the end.

'Being made of stone

Will make you strong

I've been alone for oh-so long

And there you were

Strong of mind

Beauty that I thought I'd never find

Something strange is happening

And I don't know what to do

I haven't heard your heart beat in over nineteen days

I love the way you look at me

Cause you're thinking no one else can be

I feel like someone different when you're near

So sleep now

I'll hold you tight

Everything will be all right

Just lay down and rest your weary eyes

Calm down

You're safe with me

I love you more than you can see

You need your rest

And so I wrote you this

Eternity

Can wait awhile

I'll miss the way you blush

When you smile

So sleep now

I'll hold you tight

Everything will be all right

You've lain down and closed your weary eyes

Calm down

You're safe with me

I love you more than you can see

You need your rest

And so I wrote you this

Lullaby'

I took Johanna's hand and let her pull me towards the door. I held onto Sophia's for as long as I could, but eventually I had to let go.

We reached the doorway and for some reason I hesitated, I had been here for so long, I had been hers for so long, and now I was just leaving. I promised to be with her the entire time and now I was walking away from all of it. Like Carlisle suggested, I was leaving all my hope behind, all my belief. God denied me this one thing, the one thing that I have ever tried to ask from Him; Sophia.