Gabriel (Book 1)

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January 10th, 2013

Johanna and I are still getting married. I don't know why I thought she would call it off, but I did. And thank god she hasn't. Johanna made it perfectly clear that she wanted to wait until she graduated from college first, and I completely understood! As a matter of fact, I was proud of her for wanting to finish school first. And since it was for such a good cause, I was willing to wait a few months.

Er-Johanna and I actually argued about the wedding.

She came down one night after getting ready for bed and said she had already found her wedding dress. I thought that was wonderful but I didn't want to see it, the groom shouldn't see the dress before the wedding. But I agreed to see it since she really wanted my opinion. Johanna pulled a photo from behind her back and held it in front of me...

"Isn't it beautiful?!" She squealed in delight.

It...was very nice looking. But it simply was not a wedding dress! It was thin and strapless and...RED!!! RED IS NOT THE COLOR OF A WEDDING DRESS! Its fine for a gown or something for a party but...not for a wedding.

So all I could think to say was, "I thought we wanted a traditional wedding?"

I kind of wanted to shout it at her, but i didn't want to hurt her feelings.

But I could tell that I wasn't successful...she was upset.

"Well, that was before I saw this dress and before I thought that I could have my bridesmaids wear black dresses."

Oh my god, NO! This is not a funeral! Grrrrrrrr!

"Really Johanna? So what would Rhoan wear? A pink tuxedo jacket? And I? Would I wear a sparkly red one?"

She cringed from my attitude.

"Why can't my bridesmaids wear black if your grooms men get to?!" She yelled.

"Because its not traditional!"

"To hell with traditional! I'm not a traditional girl!"

"Well I'm a traditional man! You only get married for a first time once in your life. Don't you want to do it right?"

"Are you saying I would be doing it wrong?"

"Maybe. All I want is a big white dress, the bridesmaids in color, flowers everywhere in a church and me and my grooms men in black. Is that too much to ask for?"

She pauses and we have a stare off, "Yes. Yes it is!" She screams at me and runs up the stairs.

For a couple seconds I'm quietly just sitting there staring into space, but then the quiet feels so deafening. I get up and walk outside into the pouring rain, and then I just lay there feeling the water soak into my hair and into my clothes.

I guess it was about four hours later when I heard Johanna down stairs, she flung open the front door and called out to me.

Being the kind person that I am, I went to her so she wouldn't have to get all wet coming to me.

"What? Shouldn't you be in bed? Its past 5 ya know"

"I'm not a child, Gabriel. I'm 21 years old."

I saw her holding another picture behind her back.

"Now what?" I gesture towards it.

"You said you wanted a big white dress and all that crap so here." She shoved the paper into my face.

She was wearing the red strapless dress again but there was also a big white wedding dress there...as a matter of fact, their were six, all the same.