Gabriel (Book 1)

Damn the Saints and Spare the Sinners: Part 2

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May 21st, 2016

“But-How?” was all I could manage to ask. This was so impossible. I had killed him the night that I woke up as a vampire! I stood there and watched him die, “I killed you and father and Natalia. I watched all of you die. There is no way that either of you could have escaped alive.” My eyes widened as horror spread over my face, “Wait. You’re not a- are you?”

He laughed a little and gazed at me sadly, “No, I am not a vampire. I had died, I was dead but I am also not. Do you believe in God and in heaven, Gavril?”

Nope, I thought to myself but I didn’t actually say that to him.

“To commit suicide is a sin, to escape death is also a sin,” his cold blue eyes settled on me in an accusatory manner, “So what do you think happens to those who were murdered before their time?”

I shook my head, not knowing. But I didn’t like the accusing stares he was giving me.

“We were all sent to Heaven. Father, Natalia, and I waited there until Mother, Yasha, and Filip joined us,” I still didn’t believe in Heaven, but how could Yasha and Filip make it there after all the things they said to me?

“Do you remember how good I was in life?” I shook my head again, human memories were fuzzy and distant to me, “I helped everyone, and everything that I did was for the good of someone else. I hold no anger with you for killing me, I never have. I saw my dying as a way to help you, that is why I could never hate you, little brother. You took the chance to live and I gave you part of that chance.” I wanted to break down in tears at his feet. I wanted my older brother to hold me and tell me that everything would be okay. But I also didn’t want to show weakness.

“I was a saint trapped in a world of sinners. And that is why God gave me the chance to help others, he made me an angel, Gavril.”

“Well, how come you haven’t visited sooner?! How come you never came and helped me when I needed help?!” He chuckled and I got pissed off.

“You never needed help.”

“What?!? That’s a lie, Nikolai! I needed help killing Kali for revenge, I needed help escaping my demons, I needed help forgiving myself for killing all of those people, I needed help wooing Johanna and getting her to forgive me, I needed help when I had to help kill the Volturri…” I trailed off after realizing that I was just listing all of the sins I committed in front of an 'angel', “Shit!” I muttered, then clamped my hand over my mouth realizing I just cursed, “God dammit,” Again…stupid rules! I hung my head, tired and annoyed.

“Maybe you do need help,” Nikolai said after observing me for a minute. I ran my hands through my hair and nodded, “But some things are unforgiveable.” He finished and turned away to look at Drew.

I stood looking dumfounded. Why had he come here? Was it to make me feel worse for the things I've done? Was it to show me that when I died I wouldn't go where he went?

"Gabriel, I'm not here to punish you. I'm here to help. I can make sure you go to Heaven, if that's what you want?"

"Yes, Nikolai! Definitely," I still wasn't sure that I believed...but I didn't want to die and be sent apart from Johanna because surely she would go to heaven. And I wanted to be wherever she was.

"Alright, well come with me then," he reached for my hand and stepped towards the window.

"Wait, what?" I was confused.

"I'm taking you to heaven. You said you wanted to go. The only way I can ensure that you get there is if you come with me. Now." He looked genuinely concerned as I stepped back. I retreated towards the darkness at the back of the room, gripping Nikola's crib.

"I can't."

"Why not? Gabriel, this is the rest of eternity we are talking about!" I never thought my brother could get angry, yet here he was. But death does change us all in some way.

"This is my eternity. Nikolai, I've found the woman who makes me feel complete. Yes, I would die for her, but I wouldn't choose to do it before our time together was over. My life means something now. You see my kids, and my friends, I'm not afraid anymore. For once in over 650 years...life is worth living. And I love it."

A light seemed to pass through his eyes.

"If I didn't just see you say those words, I never would have believed you could," he whispers sadly.

"Nikolai, stay." I begged, he turned to look at me, "Stay with me, with us. I want you to be here to watch your niece and nephew grow up. I want you to be there and cheer for them at their soccer games, I don't want you to miss one minute of their lives."

"Gavril, I'm dead, I'm an angel."

"But here you are! If I can see you and feel you then so can they! I want them to know where we came from and I want you to be the one to tell them."

He shook his head, "I'll always be watching, Gavril. But you can't see me doing it," my heart clenched in my chest, I was sad, "Are you sure you don't want to come with me?"

"I'm sure. I've gotten my life and I will never lose it."

He turned on his heel, mischief flickered in his eyes before he did, "Are you sure about that?"

"Of course," I replied.

Right before he dissappeared, he said gravely, "You never know how much time there is left. And you don't know how much every minute means...yet."

He dissappeared before my eyes and I was left standing there alone, confused, and sad. I ran to the window, looking for my brother. He was nowhere to be seen except for a star shinning brighter than the others. I tilted my head, confused, until I saw lightning coming straight towards the house; straight towards me. I darted to the back of the room, but the lightning had dissappeared. As my shoulders sagged in relief and I stepped forward, something inside me snapped. I put my hand over my heart as I lurched forward and fell to my hands and knees. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't move, something was wrenching and twisting inside my body. I fell to the ground, dizzy and unable to keep my eyes open. As the sun rose into the sky and through the window, it reflected in my eyes. And I couldn't keep them open any longer. Defeated, I gave in.

-Gabriel

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