I hate what I see
in the mirror
I'm so fat
I'm not getting thinner
If this is what I see
what to the others see
We all know others see worse
I'm starting to think about it and it really hurts
Because what does she see.
Probably the blob that is me
I always wake up
to the same mess
Feel like throwing up
I don't wanna get dressed
I hate school
It caused my best friend to suicide
I feel really bad
I just wanna die
Then I could see him
In heaven. Or maybe hell
I remember seeing how far
his emotions fell
I really miss him
It hurts just to think about it
What could I have
possibly done about it
Maybe been there
In times of need
But how could I be there
with the way I feel
Every morning is
the same routine
I brush my teeth
Make sure my face is clean
I catch a glimpse
of myself in the mirror
and it haunts me
the things that I did in this room
really daunts me
My stomach
is hurting now
The images appear in my mind
I fall to the ground
I guess today
will be just like usual
Dizziness kicks in
Throw up in my mouth and my mind is full
Of the thoughts
of commiting suicide
The thought of death
seems really nice
But I could really hurt
those around me
But then the dark
thought surrounds me
That they never
cared in the first place
If they did
I wouldn't be in this worse place
I wouldn't have
such a hurt face
I wouldn't
Still be running in the same race.
That's when I get up
and hide the scars
the ones that
cover my arms
Like I said
this is usual
I need to fix this
I feel like such a fool.
