You never want to hold me
You never want to see me cry
And now I'm so lonely
You never said goodbye
Every time I try to talk to you
about something more serious
you just give me a hating look
it makes me feel so delirious
It makes me feel hideous
Like I can't share my emotions
Then you send a message saying
"maybe you should do devotions
with someone"
You can't see that's what I'm trying to do
but you always reject me
what should I do
You have to faces
It makes me
go crazy
the way the you
never wanna face me
I try to share my thoughts
but you turn them down
you go running away
you make me feel like a clown
And then you read one part of my story
not knowing that it's you
There's no way I could make it more obvious
You think I'm fake. But I know I'm true
I'm not a monster
hiding in your closest
But I feel like it. I feel like suicide
But I made a promise
to one that actually cares about me
that I wouldn't hurt myself
Maybe hurting myself will make you see
that I can't handle myself
And I know you're going to ignore this
Thinking all is fine
but you know
how i really feel inside.
You think
"As if you felt anything inside"
Take a look at yourself.
I try to tell you what's going on
but you don't care
And then you send me a message after you get word that I tried suicide
Saying that you're always there.
But you're not
Otherwise I wouldn't be writing
All these emotions
I keep on fighting
to save myself
but I'm too far gone
I'm starting to think
that depression has really won.
You never wanna listen
So here this is
if you can't listen
then just read
maybe this is will make you see
what I feel. So there.
