Loving You. . .

Future and Past

"I wanted movement and not a calm course of existence, I wanted excitement and danger and the chance to sacrifice myself for my love. I felt in myself a superabundance of energy which found no outlet in our quiet life." Leo Tolstoy

"Can you believe her? I have been dreaming of Oregon for 10 years of my life. I had it all planned. They told me that if I got the grades, that they would let me go wherever I wanted to go for Uni. Why did they lie to me, they gave me false hope." I rant to Alex as we lay on his bed, side by side.

"She has no right to take my dream away. I hate her. Them. All of them." I say in an angry voice.

"Why would she tell you to give up on Oregon? She is your mother. She should want that for you. You had your whole life planned out since you were 8. She shouldn't take that from you. They are being selfish. I'm here for you, if you want to go to Oregon for Uni then I'll support you. You have me and that's all you need. That's all we need. Each other." He tells me with a serious face and captures my lips for a few seconds.

"Yeah." I say as I give him a small peck.
"And if Uni doesn't go as plan, we can always rob a bank." He tells me and I start laughing.
"As long as we do it together." I sigh.

He grabs me by the waist and positions me on top of him. I am now straddling him and my hands are on his chest. He starts rubbing my thighs and hands start moving up.

"Let's not talk about that no more. Let's do something more fun." He says before capturing my lips once more.

I lean down and start rubbing myself on him. I can start feeling him getting excited under me. I start to create more friction. He starts moving his hands under my shirt searching for his favorite destination. He begins to rub his hands on my breast when he stops and grabs the hem of my blouse and starts lifting it up.

"I think we should stop." I say breathlessly.

"Why? This feels amazing." He tells me and then he continues a trail of butterfly kisses down to the nape of my neck where he starts to softly suck.

"We won't go all the way, just close enough." He turns us over, so he is now on top of me.
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"Did we just do what I think we did?" I whisper to him.

"We stopped before we went all the way. Like I said we would. I can't believe you did that. Innocent my ass, Mimi. Where did this Mia Belmonte come from and what have you done to the uncorrupted angle. No one would believe me if I tell them what you just did." He teases me.

"You say a word and I will chop off your little friend, Alexander Parra." I threaten as I get a hold of his 'friend'. "And then only reason innocent Mia left was because you did things that I never thought you would. I had my very first organism and we didn't even have sex." I get up from the bed and I start looking for my close.

"Where are you going, Mimi? Get back here and lay with me." He says as he puts his hand behind his head.

"Your sister will be here soon and you wouldn't want her to find us like this, now would you?" I say as I wink as him.

"Shit! I forgot. Hurry!" He tells me as he gets up from the bed.

"Hurry you must leave before she gets here." He pushes me out of his bedroom. Oh how nice of him.
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"Vane, I've missed you." I say as I run to her and give her a hug. I had gone home a couple of minutes ago and came back to hang out with Vanessa. This is what I do at least once a week, so this isn't something new.

"I've missed you too, Mimi."

"How is Uni? You look like shit." I tell her

She is wearing a simple t-shirt and an old pair of jeans with her hair in a messy bun.

"Well thank you Mimi . I appreciate the complement. Thrust me once you go to Oregon and start Uni you won't be dressed like you usually wear." She says sarcastically at first and then she smiles at the last part.

I am wearing a black lace blouse with a black skater-skirt and a pair of black and white flats and of course a black headband that has a bow on it.

"I wouldn't be caught dead with a t-shirt on, Vanessa. And besides by the looks of it I might not go to Oregon next year." I tell Vane.

"Why? You have worked your ass off to get into Uni, don't be stupid."

"My mom says it a bad idea and to forget about it." I tell her with tears in my eyes. I can't believe my mom would want to take something so important to me. I have always wanted to get away from Cali. It's not that I don't like Cali, it's just that ever since I went 10 years ago , something told me that there was something there for me. My hearts tells me that there is where I need to be, and no one seems to understand that, apart from Alex.