Loving You. . .

Hurt and Lies

"Loving you was a sacrifice, you know. I gave you the power to destroy me, and that's exactly what you did." A.K

"What?" I ask Vanessa to clarify again what she had just said.

"Yeah he is staying after school to be with his girlfriends." She tells me, like if she is telling me the latest gossip. Is only she knew that her words were cutting me into pieces. I haven't spoken to Alex since leaving to prom, he has been avoiding me. And now I know why.

"How long has he been with this girl." I try to sound like if I'm not about to break down. She doesn't suspect nothing of my curiosity because this is something I would ask about anyone.

"About two months I think." She informs me. I am in shock. Two months ago I gave him my virginity. I want to throw up.

"Oh wow. I'm surprise. I mean he tells me everything and this time he didn't. I'm offended." I smile at her. "I'm happy for him. Now he has someone to take the sadness away."

"He had you." I look at her. My hands start to shake.

"What do you mean."

"You were great to him, he told me. You were all he needed when Jenna broke him. You listened to him and you made him forget."

"He told you this?" I look at Vane, looking for a glimpse of a lie.

"You are his best friend. You know more of him then any of us."

"Family, I'm home." We both turn around to look at him.

"What are you guys talking about?" He looks my way.

" Your new girlfriend." I look into his eyes, waiting for an explanation that I know I won't be getting. I hold back the tears that are trying to escape and I turn to Vanessa.

" I told her about your new girlfriend. I'm surprised she didn't know before me, since you always talk to her before anyone else." She says, while we look at him once again since he arrived.

" who I date and what I do is none of your business. That goes for the both of you." He murmurs while looking into my eyes to find a reaction to his words.

Why does it hurt, I knew this was going to happen. We were wrong for each other, he was wrong for me. But why does it feel like he took my heart and stomped on it? How can silence hurt more than the words that he has used against me not so long a go?

He walks in to his room after give me one last glance.

" I wonder what's wrong with him today." She says.

I caught him in his lie. I want to reply, but I know I can't. If I do then she will know what we have been doing.

Why did I get myself into this. I should have ended it when my heart could have stayed whole. I don't know why I want to cry, why I'm so angry. We never said we were exclusive, we were just friends with benefits, nothing more.

I wanted to yell, to say that he is the biggest asshole alive, but I know that it will only make things worst for the both of us. He could lose his girlfriend, and I could lose Vanessa. I always knew that loving him was going to end me.

"You should go check on him." I get up from the chair and I make my way to his room. I walk in and close the door behind me.

"Why?" I ask. He looks up at me and sighs.