"I love him, beam cause we are simple. He makes me happy. But what we have is a great love, it's complicated, intense, all consuming. No matter what we do and how much we fight. . . It'll always pull us back in." Blair Waldorf
It's Friday and I'm so excited to be out of here. All week Alex has been avoiding me, we have ran into each other and he has simply brushed me off. This weekend is going to be fun, to morrow I will be going to the mall with Vanessa and Sunday, my family has a gathering.
"Sleepover tonight! I want to watch scary movies." I receive a text from Vanessa.
"I don't think that I can:( "
"Come on, we haven't seen each other in so long. I forgot how you look like."
"Okay." I can't believe I'm going to sleep in the same house as Alex and for the first time we won't be doing anything.
"I'm so glad you are done with him." Cassia tells me as we make our way to the lunch line.
"I can see a glimpse of change."
"Yeah. I really hungry."
"I have never heard that come out of you."
We make our way to our usual spot with our lunches. I start eating my food and I talk to the girls in the group. As we are talking I look down I see my half eaten food and I feel my food coming back up.
"I need the restroom." I run to the bathroom and I shove 2 fingers down my throat. The content in my stomach is now being flushed down the toilet.
I can't believe I did it again.
I'm a lost cause.
I am useless.
I get out of the bathroom and I wash my mouth with water and I grab a piece of gum from my purse.
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As I enter Vanessa's house she tells me to go change into my pjs, while she makes the snacks. I walk into the bathroom with earphone on to avoid having to talk to Alex.
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more that I suffer
I walk out of Vanessa's bathroom, only to be pushed against the wall, and my lips are attacked by Alex's.
I suffocate and right before I'm about to drown
He pulls me from the wall and leads me to his bedroom and lays me on his bed, without breaking the kiss.
She resuscitates me, she fucking hates me,
And I love it, wait
I try to push him, he said he did want this. What has come over him.
Where you going, I'm leaving you
No you ain't, come back
I start giving up on trying to get him to stop, at some point, I am kissing him back.
We're running right back, here we go again
it's so insane 'cause when it's going good it's
going great
He is sucking on my neck now, I know that he has left a mark, but at this moment I am enjoying it. He stops.
I'm superman, with wind at his back, and she's Lois Lane
He gets up from the bed and brings me up with him. He take my earphones off.
But when it's bad it's awful
"I'm sorry, Mimi. I made a promise and I broke it. We are better off apart and I'm dragging you back in." He gives me a kiss once again. "Something always pulls me back to you." And we continue making out until Vanessa calls for me in the kitchen.
"I need you to help me get these snacks to my room." In the counter, there are like 10 different types of snacks.
"Um. Vanessa are you eating all of this?"
"It's for the both of us."
"It's too much, but okay." Just looking at the snacks makes my stomach turn.
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