Love Don't Break Me:
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to date a member of Tokio Hotel? Well Bonnie did just that.
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Bonnie and her two best-friends attends the New York concert of TOKIO HOTEL. They go with excitement knowing they would...
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Dear Bonnie,
It was today, almost four years ago that I asked for you to marry me. That day we made a promise to each other. We vowed to start fresh and to be there for each other through the toughest times and the most joyous days. I am sorry to say that we both have not held up our parts of this deal. We hurt one another in so many ways there is no point in comparing which is worse.
Time has passed us by so quickly and time has made me see, just how much love can do for someone. We two were two lost souls, floating about aimlessly up until the moment that we found each other. I can't see you right now but I can picture how you are. I see your hair and the way it falls on your shoulders, the way you smile and how you look right before you laugh. I want to be next to you right now. I can feel you close to me even though you're far away. Even after all we've done to one another you're the one for me. You have filled my life with so many colors that it is hard to keep track of all the joys you brought me. Sometimes when you were not aware of it, I would look at you and think to myself "How lucky could I possibly be, to have her?" I do not say this to flatter you, but I say this to let you know that love for me was something that meant you, and it will always be so.
When I think of you the first thing that comes to my mind is your eyes, the way they light up every time you look at me is perhaps the most rewarding sight ever. Those eyes hold so much love for me that I could gaze into them forever and be lost. I remember seeing you at that table when those eyes first stopped my heart. You want to know what I joked to Georg? I told him. "She's going to be the one to drive me wild."...and you were. I think back to us sitting against the window of the hotel room and you talking to me. Of course I couldn't wait to have you, but I loved that you had 'substance'. You were something different and with each sentence you drew me into you. I thought to myself, "Wow, I actually LIKE this girl."
I vividly remember one day, when we were sitting on the couch and arguing over what show to watch. I know I didn't want to watch one of those reality shows that you wanted and we were fighting over the remote. Suddenly in the middle you gave me a kiss and I let go of the remote, that grin of victory on your face I can never forget. I knew in that moment that life would be empty without your presence and that no other person can ever fill my heart with as much warmth as you. Now as I sit at this table gazing into the lights of the city, hoping and wishing that I would find the courage to say what I have been frightened to say since that horrible day almost a year ago. I think about Bill, who I love with every fiber of my being. Then I think about the sons that you two share and I get frustrated about what happened. I get so mad knowing that he had you, it infuriates me to no end to know how much we've all fucked up. Even still, you are the reason for every good that I have in my life, and you bring so much in this relationship that I would be lost without you. You have given me so much love and happiness that I cannot imagine a life where you are not there. That love has overshadowed everything we both have done to one another. However complicated this may be, however ridiculous anyone may say I am for telling you this, I love you.
I don't expect a happy ending but please believe me when I say I love you my love. You are every dream of mine come true. I'm yours as much as you are mine and shall be so eternally.
