Previously-
"I love you too, Elizabeth." He mouthed to be walking into the tunnel. I fell onto my knees and cried into my hands. I knew that one day Liam and I would come to and end. Sounds very positive doesn't it? Well I don't go into something thinking it's going to last. I go into it thinking about the possible bad things that could happen. When he said I was wrong I just wanted to scream to the world that it isn't true. He's always going to be the better one. I have to much baggage. To many problems. And too many scars. Maybe one day they will make a good story but for now they will remain my little secret and for Liam?
He'll always be my Hero.
I said he'd always be my hero and I mean it. After I forced myself to leave the airport I drove straight home, he left most of his things and I decided that for now they could stay. Harry, Niall, and Louis will be back soon. Zayn was going to join Perrie on her tour. I slowly walked up the stairs tears rolling down my cheek and walked into our room. I sat at the desk and pulled out a piece of paper.
Dear Liam,
I'm writing this letter the day after you left. If you're reading it then I decided to send it. If you aren't it's because I can't accept the fact that you're gone. I thought we'd always be together, forever and always. We may have broken up but I still love you. I'm proud of you, soo proud! I haven't picked up the blade since you left, and I'm still going to counseling. It'll be weird not seeing your beautiful smile pick me up everyday. I'm going back to school today, not very excited. My eyes hurt really bad. Since there isn't anything else to really tell you I'll just end it at that. I'll write again. Remember I'll always love you, and I'm soo proud.
Elizabeth<3
I folded the paper in three's and put it in a envelope, licking the end and sealing it shut. I don't know if I'm going to send it or not, but when the time comes I'll make that decision. For now I have to get ready for school. Curling my hair, putting on some foundation and leaving it at that because of all the crying. I walked into the closet and put on a green long sleeve with a big pocket in the middle, with some light wash boot cut jeans with patterns on the back pockets, and green converse. I walked out of the closet and went down the stairs to eat. I guess I don't really feel hungry, I don't really feel anything. I feel numb and broken on the inside. How could one person have that much affect on another person. They call it love, but I call it heartbreak. I hate goodbye's because that means gone. Too many people have left me and I never thought it would be Liam. I thought he would come back from his tour and then we'd be happy and have kids and I lied when I said I was just going to wait and see how things played out. I had this perfect picture in my head that we would be together and have a daughter, and it would all just be perfect like in the fan fictions I read. It isn't like that though. It's like you've fallen so hard and it all starts that way, but the fights are much worst in person than in writing but it's even better when you make up. I just wanted him to be the one that I could turn to for everything. But he's gone now, and I can't. He told me to move on but how am I supposed to find someone better than the best? I guess, there's Harry. I mean I don't guess because he's just as adorable and sweet and hott in person as he is in the stories don't get me wrong, but Niall set me up with Liam. Not Harry, so I feel it's just a bit weird. I mean I would date Harry in a heartbeat. He would be just as good as any other guy out there other than Liam.. It was just something about Liam that made me smile, made me stop hurting myself, he made me feel... special. What if Harry doesn't do that? I say that like we're going to date, he's probably going to find someone better anyway. After my food I grabed my phone and my bag walking out of the door. Today is going to be a long day..
*Last class of the day*
I scribbled down on the paper the last note that needed to be taken. The strangest thing happened at lunch today, the principle came up to me and told me a new student would be coming to our school and it's up to me to make her feel welcomed. Why would he choose the most awkward, no friended person in the school! Coundn't he go choose Katherine or someone other than me! She'll probably be some nerd, that doesn't fit in with anyone. Lucky me! It was a pretty hard day, sitting through it knowing I'm going home to a empty house, with nothing to do and nobody to talk to.
"Alright class have a good night, be safe!" Everyone gathered their things and walked out of the building.
"Hey, Elizabeth!" I heard a girly voice call behind me as I was about to get in my car.
"Yes Katherine?" I sighed.
"So maybe a ugly, worthless girl like you shouldn't date someone like Liam. You don't deserve to da- you don't deserve to know them! They are too good for you and you know it! Stay ugly, you fat worthless whore." Her friends laughed as she twirled her hair and walked away. Well ouch, didn't that just stab me in the heart and tear me down. I got in my car throwing my stuff in the back and crying into my hands for a couple minutes before wiping the tears away and driving home quickly. I ran straight into my room throwing my shirt off and replacing it with a sports bra and some grey shorts. Sitting in the chair by your desk logging onto your computer and crying again. It's not true, I'm not fat, I'm not a whore, I'm not worthless. But it sure feels like it and everyone is sure good at making me feel that way. The boys won't be back for 3 more days... 3 more days of being completely alone. Scrolling through facebook but finding nothing new. Just as I was about log back off to take a shower my message icon lit up with a 1. Clicking the message and seeing it was from Liam.
From: Liam.
Hey gorgeous. Hope you're doing alright. I was thinking one day we'll be back together, it's hard not being with you, knowing you're mine. But whenever you find someone they better treat you right because that's my world they're holding. Hope you had a good day! If not, screw the haters! Sleep tight love. Off to camp tomorrow! Really nervous! Xxx Liam.
You smiled at his brief message and closed your laptop. A quick shower would be the end of my night, so I thought. Right after I got out of the shower I heard noises coming from my room. I quickly wrapped the towel around my body and slowly approached my room. Nobody was in there? You walked in just staring out the window. A pair of strong arms wrapped around my body as my towel dropped to the ground.
You all thought it was over... No way! I love writing this story so much! Who could it be? Comment! First person to get it right gets a dedication!
~Michaela<3
