Previously- "It's time." My hands shake and I open the bottle of pills. I put in one, two, three, four, six, seven, nine, eleven. I drop the bottle and one single tear goes down my cheek.
"I.. Can't.. Do.. It..." I choke out and everything goes black.
***Courtney's POV***
"Ed! I'm going to Elizabeths!" I yelled.
"Alright! Be back soon!!" He calls back. I just waddle out of the house and into my car. The drive to her house isn't that long so I'm there in a short amount of time. I waddle up to the door and knock but I get no answer so I just walk in.
"Elizabeth??" I look in the kitchen but she isn't there. I walk up the stairs and into her room but she's not there, so I turn the nob to her bathroom and it hits something. I just push a little harder and walk in. I look at what was in the way and tears brim in my eyes and my mouth falls to the floor. "ELIZABETH!!!" It's getting harder to breath and I pull out my phone dialing Ed.
"Hey wh-"
"Ed. Yo- you have t-to c-c-come do-down here.." I cry into the phone.
"What's wrong?"
"Just c-come p-plea-please." My words won't stop stuttering. I'm in shock and I don't know what to do. I sit on the floor and pull her head into my lap. I check for a pulse but nothing. My own heart is beating in my head. I hear Ed slam the door.
"I'm upstairs!" I cry out and seconds later he's on his knees.
"Ed.." A tear runs down my face.
"No!! This isn't funny.. Stop. Elizabeth get up." He yells and I just watch him.
"Elizabeth!" His eyes are watery and I know what's about to happen.
"Courtney.. Sh-she.. She can't be dead.." He falls over clutching his stomach. Loud sobs fall out of his mouth and it breaks my heart. I reach my hand out to comfort him but it only makes it worst.
"She's my little sister... Wh-what happened.." I just want to leave, it hurts seeing him like this.
"Ed.. I'm going to give you some time, alone." I get up and walk out of the room his cries getting louder. I cover my ears with my hands and walk down the stairs sitting on the couch.
***Ed's POV***
I pull her small body into my arms. How could this happen and why. I keep kissing her head and crying her name out. She's my little sister and now she's gone.. I see paper on the ground and pick it up. There's one that says 'Harry,' 'Mom,' And.. 'Ed.' I pick up my paper and open it.
Ed,
Can I just say. I love you. I will always love you and I know you won't understand. Nobody ever understands. I'm hoping that you're reading this because what I've tried to do has succeeded. I didn't want to live anymore. It all became too much. It's not your fault so don't blame yourself, oh god. DO NOT blame yourself. It's my fault that I couldn't take it anymore. I just wanted to die, all day everyday that's all I could think about. Was dying. I don't want you to shut Courtney out, she needs you. Don't lose the best thing in your life over me. You'll see me again. (not for a very long time though) You need to be there for your child, and your soon to be wife. You guys will get married, don't worry. I'll be there. I'm not even going to try and explain. It's not worth it. I really just wanted you to know.. I love you, Ed. More than anything. I'll see you in 40 years.
~Elizabeth <3
She couldn't even explain to me why she didn't want to live anymore.. What happened? Why is my little sister laying dead in my arms in Harry's sweatshirt, and yoga pants?
