[RECONSTRUCTING] whalien 52 »˚tk

0510 | 07

Alphabet Boy,

I forgot to mention, did you know that it was my favorite singer's birthday last May 2? It's so sad he died too early. He was my idol for years, his death was a tragic story I never wanna tell again. I almost cried, you know, 'cause I have a tough and strong attitude outside, like you, but I'm still a ball of fluff in the end. Huh, I wonder when will be the time you'll be comfortable to be really yourself.

Anyway, they stayed with me the whole day and made me laugh.

A real one, not the forced one, nor strangled one that I'm so familiar to hearing when I'm crying.

Maybe I am a whale with 52 hertz sound, and maybe I don't have the 10 hertz sound, because I never knew why the others never did understand. People in our society are narrow minded, they always point out that it's wrong for a guy to be writer, that men should be engineers or pilots, or businessmen. They point out that women can't work in the office, that they should be a stay-at-home person, should become the trophy wife.

Not to mention the fact that it's wrong to burp loudly, or to laugh with your mouth too open. Ooh, also the way that they point out that men are for women and women are only for men? It's stupid. The world has bigger problems to problem, they shouldn't be spending their asses trying to stigma this to that, or that to this. It's all wrong. Everything is fucked up. Sadly, you're one of those people. Our other friends too. I'm still waiting for the day that our friends will finally understand my feelings for you.

I'm still waiting for the day that you will know my feelings for you. I'm still waiting for that day when you'll understand everything; how I felt, how I became, how hard it was not vent out to someone.

I'm still hoping.

I became sappy again, I'm sorry. I know you don't like being sappy.

I laughed with them, sure, but I stayed awake the whole night.

Again.

Yours truly,

Whalien.