[RECONSTRUCTING] whalien 52 »˚tk

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Alphabet Boy,

I know it's been a month again, sadly. You never dared to talk to be again, and I don't really know how you could manage that. Your eyes tell me you want to talk to me, but you never did. We stood beside each other when I looked for a book in the Library. I was waiting for you to come to me, or to at least utter a single word, but all I heard from you is silence.

We stood beside each other when I bought lunch in the cafeteria. Our eyes always meet when I pass down your class before actually going to the rest room, as if you were waiting for me. What do you do that? Do you want to talk to me or do want to have a staring contest? I can feel your eyes dig holes in the back of my head from staring too much. Look, Squishy and I...we're inseparable now.

You can't just come and go, taking what you need and just leaving me alone. You always give me mixed signals. Sometimes I think you're gonna start talking to me, when in reality, you'll just pass by me and stare at me in the eyes as if you were passing some secret message when we stand side to side. I don't think feelings can fade fast, right? After all, you are my first love.

But I don't know anymore, Alphabet Boy.

I'm starting to feel like it's only been a crush for you, when it used to be love, sincere and genuine love, because I started to think that you did hate me.

My parents told me we're moving to Seoul after this year. They told me that I'll study college there while I train at BigHit, and of course it'll be hard, but I'm going to live my dream. It's going to finally happen, Alphabet Boy. I got accepted from the auditions, can you believe that? Even I can't believe I'm going to be an idol. I hope things will continue to work out for me.

With hopes high,

Whalien.