[RECONSTRUCTING] whalien 52 »˚tk

0807 | 17

Alphabet Boy,

I want you to know that I did stay with you. I slept beside you, and you had your arms around me like I was going to go already. Can you trust me? Even if it was just now, please. Nothing bad happened, I fell asleep too, but woke up too early.

It was a good thing I woke up at six in the morning because I knew you'd be angry and confused if you woke up beside me, so I went home early and didn't even leave a note.

Eomma asked me where I've been, and I said that I've just been strolling.

Last night, I...

I still held onto the idea that love never fades so fast. People lie when they say that they don't love their partner in just a snap. That's not true. There was something in my heart last night that kept me awake for hours. Like the familiar ache in my heart that I used to feel whenever I was sad, I felt that when you pressed closer to me last night.

I still believe that first love never dies. I still think I have feelings for you, even if I have a crush on Squishy-hyung now. It made my heart flutter when you whispered my name. When you placed your hands around me, I felt contentment. It was nice to be in your arms again, I'll miss this when I move to Seoul. Contentment fell and I woke up, quickly regretting what I did.

Maybe I shouldn't have slept with you, talked to you, or even went to see you. Nowadays, the answer to every question that I have is I don't know, Alphabet Boy.

Maybe you're my key to everything.

Squishy-hyung got accepted too, and he'll be going with me next year. I never knew that Shinee-hyung was training at BigHit too. Maybe that's why he and Mixtape-hyung write songs a lot.

Your birthday is near. Should I give you drop by a present?

Sincerely,

Whalien.