[RECONSTRUCTING] whalien 52 »˚tk

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Alphabet Boy,

For the first time in my life, I didn't have something to hold me back. Ever since I was little, my decisions were always controlled. It was either from my parents or from my friends, but now, I'm proud to say that they finally let me decide on my own.

Eomma and Appa asked me what I wanted to do after high school, since I would be training at BigHit already for a job, college was only needed. I was really excited for college.

I badly wanted to skip high school and go straight to college when I was little, but now, I feel like I don't want to leave.

I didn't want to leave Autumn, I also didn't want to leave this place. I had so many things to hold me back, and one of them was you. I couldn't leave you in anyway, even if we're in the middle of a fight and a huge huge awkward situation that I honestly don't know how to get out of, whatever happens is that you'll still be my friend.

And that will never ever change.

I don't want to leave, I told myself a month ago. Not when I still haven't fixed my mistakes. No. It was a stubborn decision.

But then here we are, look at what I did. I thought it was finally going to be okay. I guess I was wrong.

I just finished talking to Eomma, and I told her my final answer.

I said yes.

I'm leaving.

For good.

Truly,
Whalien.