[RECONSTRUCTING] whalien 52 »˚tk

0513 | 08

Alphabet Boy,

Aigoo, today was one of our friend's birthday. We were all happy, and I admit, I was happy too. Shed out a smile here and then. Frown afterwards after realizing I was smiling through my problems instead of solving them, but I didn't care. For once, I felt real joy. It was so fun, we ate almost everything at our friend wanted.

I don't know, his Eomma is being too kind, and it's very touching. Hope my parents cared like that when I'm being true to them. They only turn into these sweet human beings when they need something from me. Filthy leeches. I really hate people who are users.

Shinee-hyung talked to me online again.

He obviously didn't think it was a joke, (the joke about me and you last time? Yeah, that was it.) how smart of him. Of course I didn't sound like a joke, I probably sound like a dying whale while explaining my feelings to him. It was a joke- okay, that was the joke. Hahaha.

And I became careful too, careful not to reveal too important details. We talked more and more. As each minute pass by, the more I wanted to talk to him even if I was with my friends and cousins.

Sadly, the place didn't have free wifi, so we stopped talking although I never wanted our conversation to end. He got what I was trying to say, he understood how I felt. Can you? Would you?

I was glad I forgot about you today. It was nice to feel real happiness instead of the counterfeit ones I often feel.

Best regards,

Whalien.