[RECONSTRUCTING] whalien 52 »˚tk

0810 | 18

Alphabet Boy,

The following day, nothing happened. You ignored me all over again as if you never sent a drunk text to me and as if I hadn't cared for you. It was fine though, and I'm used to it. I kind of expected it, because I was happy with Squishy-hyung. He distracted me when I was sulking because of you until I forgot why I was really sad in the beginning. He's a great friend, Alphabet Boy. I don't see the reason why hate him.

It just bothered me a lot, you know. I felt like an exploding volcano who can't even vent out what I feel because you don't care. You don't care, that the thing. You fucking don't care and will probably never again, mostly when I tell you that I loved you.

Everything bothered me now. I heard from my aunt that Fairylight auditioned and got accepted in BigHit, Alphabet Boy. This thought bothered me, that after this year, will I see you again?

Will I ever see the face of my first love? I would be working then, training at Seoul while studying. I won't be able to talk to you again because I'll start to become busy on school and training at the same time.

I know that you're insecure of yourself deep down because every time I tell you that you're handsome, the comment would bounce back to me. I've complemented you many times before but you never took it seriously. You wouldn't accept anything. You have talents but you won't let everyone know. God, you can play baseball and both of us used to play... remember?

I'm scared.

I really don't want to leave you. Even after all of what you've put me through.

Graduation is approaching fast, I don't want to go.

Sincerely,

Whalien.