【 insomnia 】destiel

☼ day twelve ☼

Castiel

I tapped my fingers along the steering wheel as the soothing radio hummed in the background. I ran my hands down the wheel, a small sigh coming from my lips as i rested my head against the seat.

I looked around and saw the fellow college kids walking around, chatting with there hands as they enjoyed each others company. "You can do this Castiel." I reassured myself as i reached to turn off the engine, the music fading away as i pulled the key out.

I opened the door with a grunt and shut it soon after, my eyes squinting at the abnormally bright afternoon. You broke up with Max for a reason, and theres no going back now. I thought as i started to walk into the building quickly, my dorm key in hand.

I made a few turns as i walked faster, wanting to get to Dean quickly before i changed my mind. I halted near the elevators before i decided to make a run for it up the flights of stairs. "You better be home Dean, I've already stopped by once.." I muttered as i practically sprinted up the staircase, skipping two steps each time until i reached the correct floor.

I ran down the halls, passing a few people as i franticly darted my eyes around for my dorm number.

I came to a halt, realizing i almost passed our room. I quickly turned around and ran back down, stopping at the familiar door. Its now or never castiel.. I gulped reaching into my pocket for the set of keys, examining them closely as i picked out the right one.

I held it out, my hand shaking slightly as i inserted it and turned the knob, the door creaking slightly. I pushed the door open, the soft music slipping out of the room as i entered; It was Sleepwalk, an old song by Santo and Johnny..

He always loved old music..

I shut the door behind me softly, noticing the familiar figure in his bunk, his nose in a text book. "Dean?" I called out, a small smile tugging at my lips as he looked up, eyes wide as he gasped. "Cas!?"

Dean franticly jumped off the top bunk, his textbooks and papers falling as he did so. I smiled as he ran to me, jumping into my arms as he brought us down in laughter. I threw my arms around him as i was pressed to the ground by his excitement.

"Oh-h my god Cas.." He muttered into my shoulder as he held me tightly. "..Ive m-missed you." He picked his head up and looked into my eyes, a single tear slipping down his cheek as he choked on a laugh. "So so much." He pressed his forehead onto mine, shaking slightly as he held his hands on my cheeks.

I smiled faintly as I kissed his forehead, pulling him into another hug and pressing his face into my shoulder again. "Im sorry i took so long." I whispered as i ran my hand through his hair carefully, his back rising and falling every time. "Its okay, your here now, thats all that matters.." He replied breathing into my neck as his arms laid limp over my head.

I closed my eyes and threw my head back as i took this all in. Im home now.. I thought as i felt Deans breathing slow as he snuggled his head further into my neck. "Please tell me you slept and took your meds." I heard his faint voice ask, making me chuckled slightly as i slid my hand down his neck. "I slept fine but i missed your presence." I sighed looking back up into the ceiling.

We laid there in complete silence, the ground oddly comfortable with his weight on me. I never knew now much i missed this place, the smells, the feeling of home, it never accrued to me. It might just be a small dorm room for two, but for me it was a purpose to keep on going.

And when we graduate together, we can find another place, one that we can both come to love. Everything could be perfect as long as he have each other, because with Dean, i am home.

"Dean i love you, you know that right?" I broke the silence as i felt him push his body up. "Of course, i love you too Cas.." He sat up slightly, his body straddling me as i spoke. "I wont leave you again." I promised softly as i stared into his eyes, but he didn't respond.

A small frown pulled at his lips as he looked down at his hands on each side of my chest. I was caught off guard when i felt his lips against mine for a short second, but before i could process what was happening, he pulled away and breathed out. Yet
noticing i didn't respond negatively, he leaned in slowly again.

His lips where centimeters away before he slightly pulled back hesitantly, holding in his breath as he connected our lips again surely.

I closed my eyes, embracing the feeling I've missed for so long. I felt dean push me lower into the ground as we kissed, his hands starting to work there way up my neck as he leaned over my body. I moved my hands up and wrapped them around his shoulders, pulling him down slightly as he pulled away for a breath.

I opened my eyes and saw his smile grow again, his outline glistening from the soft light behind him. "Your so beautiful.." I whispered placing my hand on his cheeks as he closed his eyes and leaned into the touch. "Castiel i.. Im asking for a lot but i.. Um..." His voice trailed out as he intertwined his hands in mine, squeezing tightly as he glanced down at nothing.

My mind clicked and i knew what he was talking about, a small smile on my face. "Dean.. I love you, and if thats what you want, ill give it to you." I rubbed my thumb against his cheek as he smiled slightly. "Are you sure?" He asked bringing his eyes to mine as i nodded my head slowly.

"Take Me"