A Life Worth Living

chapter 40

I climbed up into Hayes' room. Nash walked in while I was half­way threw the window. I just froze, then I climbed in all the way.

"Where were you?" Nash seemed a bit suspicious.

"The trestle. I just needed to get away from memories, but even there I couldn't stop thinking about him. I also found out he was cheating on me, with Megan. She was my second friend here."

"Maybe we should go talk to Hayes, you left on a sour note and you guys should talk about
the break­up situation."

"Probably not, you see I don't think that's a good idea. I would run back like a lost puppy, I
shouldn't, he should. Maybe tomorrow."

Nash looked at me suspiciously. "Ok, talk to you later."
I went into the bathroom. I put the shower on, and I was getting undressed when my phone buzzed. It was Max, he told me he wouldn't tell if I wouldn't; I didn't say anything.

I washed up, but I just stood in the hot steamy shower. I always do that, I think everyone does. I was thinking about Hayes and Max. I couldn't help but to call myself a slut. I just got dumped by my first and only love and I just kissed his best friend. What kind of person does that, a slut. A dirty slut I was. I felt dirty so I washed up, it didn't help at all. I texted Max when I got out of the shower, it read:
Hey about today I was hurt. I liked our kiss, but I still like Hayes, I hope you understand. He replied about 10 minutes later.
It read:
I understand, don't tell anyone I skipped or I'll get in deep shit

I didn't answer him. Elizabeth called the school so Hayes and my early dismissal didn't count. I laid on the living room couch with Sky and Annee watching My Little Pony. I don't understand how Sky wasn't worried at all.

"Sky are you alright with Hayes being in the hospital?" I felt rude, I also felt Liz's eyes on mine.

"Ya. I don't like to show my sad emotions. Mama told me that you look weak when you do that, and she's right." She shocked me with that answer. A little girl already hiding her feelings, her older years will be confusing for her friends. Nash came downstairs.

"Dal, can we uh talk upstairs?" I nodded my head and got up off the couch. Nash climbed out his window and I followed him. He pulled out a joint. "You want to smoke?"

"Yea, give me the joint," I took the joint and Nash's lighter and lit the sucker. "Nashy trashy coming in clutch."

"Yea yea. You can't tell no one about me uh blazing. My career would be destroyed. I mean, I mean you can tell the boys get high, but some of them are going no where. Like Taylor doesn't have a real job, but he makes a ton of cash, which I have no idea how he makes. Carter has nothing running for him either. Isn't it scary knowing in 10 years some of us might have no fans? Or we won't be going on tours together." Nash and I got into some really deep convo's, but I won't tell you exactly what it was about.
It mostly consisted of magcon, and Bart. I talked about my dad, and my mom. Nash met a new side of me. I wasn't his little brother's girlfriend anymore, I was his friends