A Life Worth Living

chapter 46

It was very quiet after I said that. I was crying and my Mom was searching for an answer. She opened her mouth to talk, but nothing came out.

"I saw you as me, and Hayes as your father. I was scared that you two would end up like your father and I. We were stoners, drunks, we loved each other, but we didn't grow up. I wanted the best for you, but I handled it totally wrong. I am so deeply honestly sorry for what I did to you. My consequences are hurting all three of us. I'm sorry."

"I can't believe that Mom. You told me you wouldn't hurt me twice, but you did, and not only that you kicked me to the curb. You only care about Annee. Ever since Zach died she has been your favorite and your main priority because you don't want her to end up like Zach and me." My Mom started to cry. Annee just hid her face and Liz was shaking her head, and I was crying and waiting for a response.

"I don't like you saying that." My Mom was looking dead in my soul.

"It is true. You know it, that's why we moved. You didn't want our history hurting her! You can't escape it Mom, you never will!" I couldn't believe I was saying this.

"SHUT UP! I SAID I WAS SORRY! DON'T YOU DARE SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN!" My Mom stood up and started to walk over to us. Liz got up and stood in front of her.

"Get out of my house now. I don't want you here anymore. This nice get together turned out ugly."

"I can do whatever I­-" Mom got cut off because Liz punched her.

"Get the hell out of here. You need Jesus! Never again are you coming here." Liz pushed Mom out the door and locked it. "Dal, Annee come here." I ran up to her and hugged her so tight. I started to cry on her. Annee hugged our legs. "Cakes you should sleep in my bed tonight."

"Uh­.. ok." Liz picked her up and we had a group hug. Nash came down and hugged us too. I let go and went upstairs. Nash followed me.

"You wanna sleep with me ? Or at the hospital? My Mom can pick you up in the morning and take you to school." I hugged him and nodded. I started packing. Nash drove me there. "You wanna go alone?"

"Yea, I got this."

I walked into Hayes' room. He was holding hands with Dyllon. He looked up at me and let go of her hand. I turned around and walked out. I heard him screaming my name, but I kept walking.

"Dallas wait, let me explain."

I turned around and let her walk up to me. "Suck a fat one you bitch," I punched her in her face. She lost balance and I grabbed her arm. I punched her in the nose making her fall right to the ground.

I walked out of the hospital and went to my house. Not Hayes', mine.
I grabbed a notebook and a pen, and threw it into a bag.
I walked into the pit. I passed all the people at the party spot, Max was there. I ignored the small wave he gave me.
I found a small cliff leading into dirt. I took my passcode off my phone and started writing letters to everyone in my notebook. One to Hayes, Nash, Sky, Annee, Liz, Emma, Charlie, Jax, Ryan, Dyllon, Veronica, one to the Magcon Boys, Max, Mike, Jessica, my Dad, my Mom, friends back home, Megan, and one to my fans. I wrote my last words, 'I'm sorry' It was 12 when I was done with my suicide letters.
I put my phone and the stuff I packed down on the edge of the small cliff. I looked down. It had to be a good 70 feet drop. I closed my eyes and turned my back to it.

I started crying. I was having an anxiety attack. It was so hard to breath, and I couldn't control it, and I felt my neck closing. "I'm such an idiot. I'm sorry."

"Dallas? What are you doing?"

"Max?" I opened my eyes. "Go away, you don't want to see this."

"Wait wait, don't move. Dal just relax," he cake towards me. "That drop won't kill you, it's not high enough."
I shut my eyes "I don't care. I- I'm sorry." I fell backwards.
As I was falling I heard him screaming.
I didn't regret anything. I saw my life flash before my eyes. Growing up in North Carolina, my dad, my brother, seeing a baby Annee, and meeting Hayes.
I hit the ground.