A Gaze Through My Reality-scope

Late

Strolling along through life and down memory lane,

laughing at my mistakes and wondering "Was I even sane?",

but then there's also the pain...

I feel like I'm always trying to catch up to something,

I can't see it until it's already lost,

So I still cling

to the regrets I thought I had tossed.

I'm in a battle with fate trying to at least get it to bleed,

but not even a scratch only close calls,

though I feel like I can succeed,

I wonder how long before this tower of pride falls.

The chains I strap to myself unintentionally make me think I'd stuck when I'm free,

my doubts, my fears, my anxiety weigh me down to the ground,

but I'll struggle as long as my heart continues to pound,

I'm desperate to find the treasure I'm searching for and hoping that I won't be

too late.