This chapter is dedicated to 1beautiful_insanity1 bc she's the friend I'm talking about in the next 2 lines (No she is not "her")
I'm struggling alot but I don't care enough to change but I'm being forced so ig I'll attempt to try bc one of my friends is so ya. Hope u can try to enjoy this chapter❣
How am I?
Horrible.
I want to die
I'm so confused
I feel defused
I like this girl
But she can't know
I feel worthless
Useless
I'm honestly so stupid
No one can really like me
No one can love a suicidal girl
Who's wrist arn't clean
Who's mind is fogged
Who is struggling to stay alive
No one can love me if I don't even like myself
I think
And think
And think
And think
Yet all my thoughts lead back to her
Her.
I could talk to her for hours
I love to hear her voice
She's the reason I cry at night
Yet she's one of the reasons I'm still on this earth
This worlds just not my place
But I'm the reason my friends keep fighting
So I stay
Because this is where my friends
Are meant to be
So this is how I cope
There's this girl...
Absolutely broken
But in an absolutely perfect way
She's almost always on my mind
She never really leaves(my mind)
I'm writing about her again
Because I just wanna die
But I'm stuck here
So I'm just bringing out the beauty in my life
Her.
She's keeping me alive
Yet she's digging my grave
She's my happy place
Yet she's my suicide forest
This girls gonna be the death of me
(Sorry I just really loved those lines from the last chapter)
Thank you for being you
You perfectly imperfect mess
Because I don't want perfect.
I want
Her.
Another chapter about "her"... Ik I'm pathetic but this is how I'm coping with life at the moment & I'm just really depressed & I honestly wanna die but I'm writing instead of self-harming so deal with it even tho this book is shit I'm trying. See u guys in my next lousy chapter❤️ Bye children hope life's going well.
