Warning:If you are sensitive about the subject of self-harm don't read this chapter.
Ok just had to put that out there...
Hope you enjoy this little story of mine
& my friend 1beautiful_insanity1 inspired me to write this chapter because of her newest chapter in her book "My self harm journey" so you should read that & her other books bc she is amazing. That's all hope you enjoy.
Last night:
I felt like I needed to cut
But I didn't want to
So I tried to distract my mind
But my mind just ended at
Do it.
Cut yourself.
You will feel better.
But I was resisting
Then the worst happened
My mom came it
(I was sitting on my bathroom floor)
And she wanted her ice cream spoon
Because I'm fat and ate some ice cream
My mom kept bugging me and asking what was wrong
I didn't talk
So she left and came back
I didn't think she was gonna come back
And she found my blade
And took it
She just kept saying
"I don't understand"
So I said "It makes me feel better"
She still kept saying
"I don't understand"
And she told me
I'm gonna have to see a therapist
That this has to stop
That I'm doing it for attention
And basically telling me I'm fucked up in the head
And I felt like complete shit
Because my mom basically told me that since I cut I'm an attention seeker
Sorry I just needed to get this out bc I don't feel very happy rn(but the first friend I ever had is coming over but I'm just really mad at my mom)
That's all children.
Goodbye🌈
Hope you enjoyed see you in my next chapter.
