(What I mean by "old me" is me 8th grade)
Hope you enjoy this shitty chapter✌🏻️
What happened to the old me?
That happy bubbly girl
Always talking
Having fun
Living life
Making new friends
Talking to new people
Able to enjoy the little things
Being happy with myself
I was finally starting to actually accept myself
Then reality kicked in
The realization that no one really cares
That I have to face my problems
I can't pretend they don't exist anymore
Why can't I just go back to 8th grade
Where my life was finally going up
But what goes up eventually has to come down
So I should've expected this
I may not be alone but I'm lonely
I'm busy saving everyone else
I forgot to save myself
But am I really worth saving?
What happened to the old me?
Before this shit called life
& my thoughts happened
I want the old me back
I just want to accept myself again
I want to look in the mirror
& not think I see this revolting object
Staring back at me
That I'm forced to face
Everyday.
I just want to escape the one thing
That I can never escape
Myself.
Even when I'm dead
I'm still me
Sadly.
I'm just so sick of being me
I hate myself
I hate this new found "anxiety"
I don't even know what it is
But I hate it
When I'm in big crowds of people
I feel like someone is squeezing my lungs
& it's hard to breath
Does any of this make since...
I'm sorry I'm confused
I just don't want to be me anymore
I so sick of being tired all the time
Being antisocial
Shutting everyone out
I'm trying to change
But things get in the way
I have a "bad past"per say
I've had problems from a really young age
What happened to the old me?
The happy me
The me want to be(again)
But I'm just stuck being me
With all my flaws & problems
What happened to the old me?
I will make a chapter about my past if y'all want just like comment or vote for this chapter if u want that chapter but I might make it anyways I'm not sure tho. Well see you guys in my next chapter.💙
