Hey guys remember me? I know I haven't updated in awhile & this book is complete shit but writing helps me a little & I really do struggle with paranoia & some people may be like struggle? U think being paranoid is a struggle? Yes it is & it's absolutely horrible to live with & I've struggled with it my whole life. Anyways... hope you enjoy wat I write but tbh idk y u would it's really bad but I'm happy if u actually like it.😊
I lay in my bed
Trying to sleep
Simple right?
Wrong.
I stay up for hours
Trying to sleep
But.
I.
Can't.
I think I hear voices & footsteps
Please don't hurt me
Please don't hurt my family
I check...
Closet.
Bathroom.
Under my bed.
Nothing.
No one.
It's all in my head
But it keeps me up all night
It makes me so tierd
I lose sleep
Energy.
Willpower.
It's like it takes over your mind
It makes your anxiety rise
It makes you panic
But all you can do is lay their
Completly terrified
Almost like your paralyzed
Inside your mind
You can't breath away this anxiety
You can't just close your eyes
It's always there
Always on your mind
Is someone their?
Is someone hiding?
It doesn't matter how many times I check
The thought that someone's their
That their waiting till I sleep
During the day I'm ok
If someone's their I'm fine
But when I'm alone
That's all that I can think of
Someone's their
Waiting.
At night
In the dark
Alone.
I lay trying to sleep
But I can't
Because of the thoughts
That take over my mind
I just want them to go away
But this is just the life
Of someone living with
Paranoia.
Whale I hope y'all enjoyed this chapter see y'all later. Goodbye.💜
