(This was about my 5th grade year bc I remember it really well and sorry that I get off track) Hope you enjoy anyways.
I was the weird kid
That no one liked
I always sat alone
Not. One. Single. Friend.
My whole grade hated me
Literally everyone
I walked the track
Alone.
Every. Single. School. Day.
We would get a new kid
I was the first to be nice
But then the other kids
Would tell them to hate me
Not a single day went by
Without me thinking of suicide
I was all alone
Everyone hated me
I was a bully
But then I got bullied
I hated myself
I was diagnosed with depression
And ocd(obsessive compulsive disorder)
When I was 9 or 10
I've always been a "problematic" kid
I got expelled on the last day of kindergarten
EXPELLED
Like I don't even know how I did that
And now my depression is back
And worse then ever
Because of my past
When I get into my suicidal state of mind
I just get stuck
I feel like that little kid
Who sat alone
Who was alone
I need someone to be there
All the time
But I could never expect someone
To be there for me
As much as I would need someone
To be there for me
I hate bothering my friends
When I'm really depressed
But I'm so scared
That I may actually
Commit suicide
And that would hurt my family
And my friends
I want to end this burning pain
But that would hurt
The people I love
My past makes me who I am
But I hate who I am
I hate that little kid
Walking alone
Wanting to end it all
I wish I would have
When no one would've cared
If I was gone
I still feel like no one would care
But that's when I'm in my
Suicidal state of mind
That's my past
This is who I am
I hate my past I hate who I am
I hate that I feel like
I'm gonna die
By suicide
I know none of you wanted this or care about my past but here it is anyways idk I just felt like writing this so it's now a thing in this book.
Bye guys see you in my next chapter.🦄
