We'll Brave This Storm

Chapter 20: Don't lie & say that it's okay.

I was sitting in Samantha's black leather revolving chair.

"I miss Nate." Samantha said.

"Hell, I do to." I answered.

"It's sort of like. How can I put it? Imagine you loosing Mason. Like that." she said.

I thought about what life would be without Mason.

Unlivable. Terrible. I can't even imagine.

"I miss him so much Alice. I just want him to wrap his arms around me & say that everything will be okay. To kiss me & tell me that he loves me. It's just hard. Really. Fucking. Hard." she started to let tears fall from her eyes.

I pulled her into a hug.

"It's gonna be okay Sam. Everything's gonna be fine." I reassured her.

I was beginning to realize that Nate was gone. Nate was gona & he was never coming back.

Did I like it? No. But I have to get used to it. & I hate it. I really do. But Nate wouldn't want me to waste the rest of my life in tears and misery. I know that much.

My phone beeped, I got a text message.

Alex: Come home, I have to show you something.

Alex was my father. Things were quite awkward between us, especially because I have no care in the world to get to know him.

I groaned.

"I have to go, but I'll text you or something." I said, hugging Sam once more.

She nodded, wiping her tears.

"Stay strong." I faked a smile.

I left & walked back home into the darkness of the night.

The only thing that there was were the dim lights of the lamposts.

As I finally reached my house, I found Alex in the garage.

"Yeah?" I said walking towards him.

"Listen, I know that I haven't put much of an effort to be in your life before. But I really truly am sorry. & I do want that father daughter relationship. I also heard you got your licsence. & this is my I'm sorry gift to you." he said.

He took the white cover off a car & in front of my eyes was a red shiny beautiful car.

Other girls wouldn't like it but I loved it.

Especially because it was red.

My own car. Finally. But instead of jumping & hugging him.

I simply stood there & smiled calmly.

"Thanks. I appreciate it."

"Your welcome." he answered. "Well. I'll leave you two alone."

He walked out of the garage.

I moved my fingers across the piece of beauty.

I went inside it & close the door.

I placed my hands on the dark grey steering wheel & sat back into the chair.

I looked around, smelling the new car aroma.

I could get used to this.

I smiled.

I got a phone call from Mason.

"Hey babe." I answered happily.

"Can we talk?" he asked, his voice sounding worried & tired.

"Um sure. Come over. I'm in my garage." I answered.

In a matter of minutes I saw Mason walking over.

I kissed him, throwing my arms around him.

He kissed back & hugged me.

"When did you get this?" he laughed, referring to my car.

"Alex just got it for me. That's why I'm in here." I answered. "So what did you want to talk about?"

"Oh yeah." he said, scratching his neck. He looked down, "I think we should take a break."

"From what?" I said, frowning.

"From us." he answered, looking up at me.

"W-why?" I stuttered. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"I-I just need time to think about some things." he answered quietly, avoiding my eyes.

I was hurt, but anger overcame me.

I shoved him. "What the fuck?" I nearly shouted.

"I'm sorry." he simply answered, no look of sympathy on his face.

"I'm sorry?!You come here to tell me we need a break & all you say is I'm sorry?!" I shouted, into his face.

He looked at me in the eyes.

There were tears already falling down my cheeks.

"What happened to the whole I love you & I'll never leave you & you're the love of my life shit!?" I screamed, pushing him again.

"I wasn't lying." he whispered, looking away.

"You weren't lying?! You weren't lying?! But yet you come to break up with me?!" I screamed once more. "I guess I was the only one who felt that way!"

"Alice..." he softly started.

"You know what?! FUCK YOU MASON. FUCK YOU. LEAVE. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU HERE ANYMORE. JUST LEAVE." I yelled at the top of my lungs.

"But--"

"LEAVE."

He sighed, taking one last look at me. My face with never ending tears falling on the sidewalk.

He left the garage.

I kicked the wall & screamed in frusturation.

Not only did my best friend die but now I have to go through a break up. The sad thing is that I thought it was all true. But he never meant it. Ever.

I looked around the garage. I stared at my car & ran over to it. I got they keys that were laying on top of the hood & put them into the ignition. I slammed the door loudly & began to drive.

Where to? I don't know.

But all I know is that I need to get away. Go far away. From this town. From this place.

Full of memories of me & Nate. Full of memories of me & Mason.

I never want to come back.