We'll Brave This Storm

Chapter 21: All that's left has gone away.

Happy 16th Birthday darling. I'm so glad I met you. You don't understand. You're my everything. Without you I can't breathe, eat, or sleep. I'll love you always my dear. -Mason <3

"Bullshit." I mumbled as I read what was engraved inside my studded bracelet.

I threw it out the window.

Where was I? I have no clue.

How long was I driving last night? Hours & hours & hours & hours. That's all I can tell you.

All I know is that I'm far from home. Very far. I had about 1,000 missed calls from Alex & a whole bunch of texts from Samantha.

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Let's blow an artery

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Get plastic surgery

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Keep your apology, give us more detonation

More, gimme more, gimme more

Oh let me tell you about the sad man--

"Yeah." I answered after staring at my phone for a long time.

"Alice, where the hell are you?" Samantha asked.

"I don't know." I answered.

"Mason told me about what happened. Yeah, I know, he acted like an ass, but you can't just leave Alice. I still care about you. Where'd you go?" she asked.

"I don't know." I answered once again.

"You're pissing me off, what do you mean you don't know?!" Samantha said.

"I just drove & drove & drove. & now I'm here." I replied.

"Here? Where's here?" she questioned, getting angry.

"I already told you. I don't know. But I'm far from home & that's all that matters." I replied.

"Alice, I need you. Where are you? I'll leave school just to find you."

"I don't know where I am. Go back to class & stop wasting your time with me. I'll return when I return." then I hung up, turning off my phone. I was parked by a gas station. I stared out the window.

Then the tears began to form again.

I remember when Nate left. & I felt I was going to die. I couldn't live without him. & now, he's gone. He's gone. Somewhere. We don't know where. I just hope he's okay. & I just hope he can see me & Samantha. I really do. I want Nate here, next to me, in my car. I want to show him my car so he can get all excited & then start taking advantage of me & make him drive him around different places. I know for a fact that after his birthday he would've kept getting drunk every night. He would've kept dragging me along with him to the craziest places. Doing the craziest things. If I told him Mason broke up with me he'd get mad & tell me how much of a douchebag he is & how I could do so much better & comfort me. If I wanted him to beat him up he would, in a heartbeat. I wanted him to sleepover, so I could cry, cry about how much Mason hurt me & then he'd sing the song, the Chase Coy song. I can remember his voice clearly. We would go to Hot Topic & steal more stuff when we're broke & really want something. We would've gone to more concerts, he probably would've sneaked in through different places so we could meed the bands. We would've rebelled against the world together. But now we can't. Because I'm a wimp & he's not here anymore. But wherever he is, I'm sure he's breaking the rules. I smiled at the thought. But the tears didn't stop. My nose became red & stuffy.

And Mason. Why'd he break up with me? What did I ever do to him? I tried my best to be a good girlfriend. I was honest. I actually loved him. I wanted him with me too. To wrap his arms around me. I want to feel his touch against my skin. To feel his lips softly against mine. For him to play with my hair again. I want him to whisper in my ear, telling me how much he loves me, sending chills down my back. I wanted to actually believe the fact that we would last forever. That the world could finally see that fairytales are real. The true love exists. But it was just an act. It was all a lie, I'm pretty sure. He wouldn't make me suffer like this if he really loved me. After he knew that I already was suffering.

My head fell on the steering wheel. My hands still gripping it tightly. I started to cry hysterically.

Get your shit together Alice.

I pulled my head up. I wiped away all the tears. I made myself sit up nice & straight & attempted to place a smile on my face. & I drove, back to town. I had to get through this somehow. At least I still have Samantha, although I'm pretty sure she'll leave me one day too. Like everybody else. They all do.