I'll remember him. ~onedirection~

Forgive me

*Celine's POV*

Such a relief she forgives me. I didn't do something wrong to her but she has a good relationship with her brothers.
I hate myself for kissing Harry, I do.
I do?
Yes! I'm not in love with him, I can't. I can't love him, he isn't forever.
Niall is, I can't live without him. He knows me better than anybody.
He's like a brother to me, my best friend. Well that was, I hope things don't change between us. I ruined everything, things will never be the same as before.

I want to start crying but I can't Astrid is putting my make up on, otherwise I would ruin the make up, like I ruined my relationship with Niall.

I hope with whole my heart Niall still loves me, I know he does, but I hope he wants to admit, I hope he wants to show it like before, how he kissed me, how he wrote songs and sang them to me, how he putted our photo on the wall, how he tried to make a ponytale in my hair but failed.

I know what I did is unforgivable but I know he can forgive me... if he wants.
My stomache hurts when I think about him not missing me like I miss him, thinking about his butterfly's being gone while mine are still futtering in my belly.

"You don't like it?" Astrid asks, her face looks worried. I look into the little mirror in my hand. "It's perfect." I smile. "than what's wrong?" she questions, why does she always have to pose so many questions?
"Nothing really."

"How does your dress look like?" Kate asks and I take my bag on my lap.
I hold my red dress in the air, it's sleeveless so I hope I won't be cold.
"It's gorgeous." Kate whispers while striking the material.
"You'll look amazing." Astrid adds.
"Thanks girls."
"Put it on then!" Astrid demands.
"Niall will love it!" Kate flaps out. As soon as the words leave her mouth she regrets them.
"It's okay." I assure her and she smiles.

I put on the dress and they both gasp.
"What's wrong, it's too much right?"
I question looking down at the dress.
"Its wonderfull." Astrid says
"More than that." Kate adds and they both stare at me.

Kate puts her dress on too, she looks stunning. The dark blue dress with sprankels suits her perfectly.
Astrid takes her dress and holds it for her to look at it.
"Come on!" Kate says "put it on!"
Astrid smiles and puts her dress on as well. "Look at us." I smile and Kate get's an idea.

"In my mother's bedroom there's a big mirror." we walk to the bedroom and are standing before the mirror.
The curls of my hair lay down my shoulders just like Kate. Astrid's straight hair lays over one shoulder what makes her look breathtaking.
"I'll take a picture." Astrid says and takes her phone. We pose like real models and Astrid takes a few pictures. "We're ready to go I guess."
Kate says, I can see she can't wait to get back in Liam's arms again. They're so cute. How would things go between me and Niall? Will he hug me? Will he kiss me? Or won't he even talk to me?

"It's going to be allright." Kate assures me after reading my thoughts. She's wonderful on the inside and outside as well. "You can stay with me. Niall wants to talk to you Celine, I know he misses you." Astrid says and strikes my back. "thanks girls."
"We're here for you babe." Kate says. I wonder she calls Liam 'babe' too.
I smile. Niall misses me?
"Yes he does." Astrid says. I don't know why everyone can read my mind.


*Niall's POV*

"You're ready bro? Zayn can be here every minute." Liam looks perfect, he always does. "She misses you too Niall, just talk to her, everything will be okay." He assures me and I want to hug him, so tight. Hes always there for me,
for everyone. "She's my everything."
"I know the feeling bro."
I wish I was there for him when he needed me. I was so busy with myself, with me and Celine that I wasn't there for him to help him with Kate. He had a hard time. He still has. It must be hard to be together with someone, completly in love, but she can't remember you.

"I'm so sorry Liam."
"What for?"
"For not being there for you when you needed me as a friend, as a brother."
"Its okay Niall."
"I'm so selfish."
"Niall stop blaming yourself all the time for everything what goes wrong."

There's a knock on the front door and Liam jogs to open it. Zayn walks in and looks at me.
"Hey Niall, long time no see."
"Yea, too long." He hugs me and wipes my back. "You look diffrent." he says.

I'm diffrent, I changed. Because of everything.
"Let's go." Liam says, he cant wait to have Kate back in his arms.
If I'm honnest with myself I can't wait to see Celine too. I saw her just one day ago but it feels like ages.
But I feel jalous because Kate wants to see him too, Celine probably doesn't want to see me again.

I'm such a fool to break up with her. However we talked, it still doesn't feel right. I told her I needed time. I don't need a single minute more to know I want her back.
I hope we can move on together and nothing will change between us, altough we both changed.
I hate Harry. More than anything on this planet. I hope he isn't invited to the party, when I see him... He will not escape from my fists.
I want him to be hurt, as much as he hurts me. I know I can't hurt him the way he did to me, no physical pain compares to what I feel. But I want him to feel the pain, I want him to look scared into my eyes, I want his blood on my hands. That sounds a bit creepy I know but it's true. I don't want to kill him. Well I want to but I have too much selfrespect to do something like that.

"Yow, Nialler! Are you joining us or what?" Zayn yells. They're both sitting in the car when I realise I'm still standing in the door. I close it and take a seat in the back of the car behind Liam. Zayn starts his little black car and drives down the street.
"I hope she'll come." I say out of nowhere. "Niall stop being so nervous. She'll come and everything will be allright." I'm irritating Liam I know but I can't help it, I'm so nervous.
I've never been nervous before to see Celine. What should I say to her?
'Hey Celine, how are you?" That sounds like nothing happended.
'Can we talk?' That's too hard.
'I miss you Celine.' That's what I'm going to say. I'll tell her the truth.




(Hey people :) This weekend I need to do a lot of homework do it will last a little longer but I'll try to upload on sunday. Thanks for reading once again ;) check out the video on youtube! I love you all!
What's going to happen on the party?)
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