I'll remember him. ~onedirection~

Close to you but still so far away

(So I wrote this chapter twice because the first time I forgot to save it.
-palmface- I'm such and idiot! But anyway I'll try to update daily so don't hate me if they are shorter. At least they're longer than in the beginning of the story 😝)



*Kate's POV*

When I wake up Liam's hand is still struggled in mine. He didn't let me go.
The baby's are still asleep including Liam. Our hands are sweating but I want to keep holding hands. I roll on my back to check what time it is. It's almost 11 o' clock, I take my phone from the bedside table and almost drop it on my face.
I have two new messages.


From: Celine x

- 'Don't forget the to come to the game tomorrow :) I'll be at your place at two.'


The second message is from my mother, I don't open it, I have to wake up Liam! But he's so cute when he's asleep. But I have to... He has to play a match today.
"Liam?" I whisper and let go of his hand to shake his shoulder softly.
"Liam, you need to get up."
"Huhuh." he mumbles and pulls the blanket over his head.
"You have a football game remember?"
"Ohw shit!" he jumps out of the bed and starts getting changed.
I get up aswell and and pull the shirt Liam gave me over my head to put on some jeans and a sweater. He rushes down the stairs while I wake up Louis to help me with putting the baby's back to bed. After that I rush downstairs too to find Liam eating in the kitchen.
"What time do you have to be there?"
"12"
"Oh."
He sighns and eats his toast like he hasn't eaten in months.
"Louis can take you." I add and he smiles. "Thanks." I can see that getting there was his problem.
His shoulders seem to relax.
"No problem, I'll ask him."
I walk back upstairs and knock on Louis' door. There's no anwser. I open the door without permission so I'm lucky he isn't there. He would actually kill me for coming in without his permission. Where is that brat? I walk to the babyroom and open the door as quietly as I can. Louis is standing in front of the window with Jade in his arms. She's drinking her milk from the bottle Louis is giving her.
Louis didn't hear me coming in or he's ignoring me completly.
I'm standing in the doorway watching my older brother feeding my little sister. Half sister. They have another father and I don't know how to feel about that. The only father figure they have is Louis who's leaving soon and Liam the boy I love more
than breathing.
"Miss Tomlinson?" Louis catches me staring at his naked back. He smiles and puts Jade back to bed.
"Can you drive Liam to his game? He has to be there at 12."
He looks at his watch to check the time and nods.
"Sure, are you coming?"
I shake my head, it's a surprise.
I'm glad he isn't asking any questions because I'm a terrible liar, especially to Louis. "Okay."
"You need to put on a shirt."
"Why?" he looks at his body, only wearing grey sweatpants.
"You can't drive like this."
"Yes I can."
I sigh and walk to Liam to hug his warm back and tell him Louis can drive him. Liam smiles and kisses my nose.
"Thanks babe." I give him a smile in return. "humhum." Louis annonces himself and walks down the stairs. He's wearing jeans and a red shirt, so he did listen to me. When he reads my mind he winks at me in the most adorable way and waits by the front door. Liam puts his arm around my waist and kisses me. I wish him luck for a last time and he waves while walking through the door. I miss him already. How childish.



*Celine's POV*

When I wake up in an empty bed I feel like someone kicked me in my stomache. I get up and put some jeans on and a blouse. The white one Niall likes so much.
Niall get out of my head please?
I run down the stairs and almost fall for three times. When I open the door of glass I see the couch is empty.
My stomache ache gets even worse.
I sit down the couch, he's cold so Niall didn't sleep here last night.
I feel the tears coming up and I don't even try to hold them. My eye catches a jellow paper on the table. I grab it and start reading.

'Dear Celine, I'm sorry for checking your phone... I know you hate me for doing that but I don't blame you. I hate myself for doing that too. I trust you Celine, I don't trust Styles. But don't you understand? You kissed him multiple times and we fought a lot.
But I still love you Cel, more than what. I couldn't sleep on your couch here so close to you but still so far away. You are my world, my everything so please forgive me. I need you and I know you need me too. Nialler x'


I don't know how I have to feel about this. I'm so confused.
Should I be mad or hurt?
Or both?
Should I forgive him?
Should I call him?
Or wait for him to call me?

I take a bag of crisps and start eating while reading the letter over and over again. When my bag is empty I find some cookies to eat in the cupboards. I found out that when I'm frustrated or sad I eat like an elephant. When we keep fighting all the time I'll get fat.
But I couldn't care less at the moment.

I go to the bathroom to curl my hair and brush my teeth. When I check the time its already 1'o clock.
I send Kate a quick message to tell her I'm on my way and put my converse on.
Damn.
How do I get there?
I'll have to take the bus I guess.
I walk to the busstation on the end of the street. The bus is already there so I start running. I'm just on time.
I take a seat in the back and stare out of the window, thinking about why all of this shit happens to me.

"Hey." a male voice speaks, I turn around to see Harry sitting next to me.
No, not now.
"Uh, I don't think this is a good idea."
"Relax I just want to tell you I'm moving on so you don't have to be 'afraid' of me anymore."
The way he says afraid almost makes me laugh.
"Oh, that's great news."
"Yea."
The rest of the ride we stay silent and I keep staring outside.

"Bye." I say after ten minutes of awkward silence.
"Bye." he says and looks at his phone.
He smiles and start pushing the keys.
I wonder who he's texting, she makes him smile so I'm happy for him.


*Zayn's POV*

We're all getting changed. The coach is telling us what we have to do. It's awkward getting changed in the same room with twelf other guys.
Who don't know I'm gay.
I need to tell Liam about it, he's my best friend, he deserves to know it.